Grief // James cook

Part 14

You sit looking at another positive test you shove it in your draw full of other positive tests and wipe the fallen tear off your face before deciding to tell effy you walk into her room "eff can we talk" you ask the hungover girl "yeah what's up" she says as you sit on her bed "Thanks again for letting me stay" you say choosing it's not the right time and knowing if you tell her it means it's real "get ready for collage" effy says to you and you walk into your room. You curl you hair and do loads of makeup before putting on a bandanna shirt with ripped jeans.

"Ready" you say standing in the doorway of effys room you both walk to college and sit in the student lounge as you didn't have any classes till 11 but effy wanted to hang with Freddie you sat on a sofa with your knees to your face with everyone else does there own thing. You were thinking about how to tell effy you see her alone without Freddie so you walk over to her and take her arm to the bathroom "I need to tell you something" you say again looking under all the stalls to see if anyone was in them "I'm pregnant" you say to effy who's jaw drops "are you sure" she asks and you nod "I don't know what to do I just know it's cooks" you say "I will help just not right now" effy said and walked off you walked to your locker and put your books in it before walking and sitting with effy and Freddie they tried to include you "well howdy fucking doody" cook said as he walked in and you smiled "hey cook" you said "hi" was all he said and carried on "I just swung by really to see how deep everyone's rolling see who's up for a pink and a poke" cook said and offered jj and panda who both said no she offered Naomi and Katie who I assume he didn't know we're not talking "anyone" he asks when panda asks him if he's scared "we'll come" Freddie said "nah your all right" cook said looking at you when cook starts talking about the bruise on jjs face "cook we kinda need to talk" you say after effy gave you a look to say tell him "later" cook said to you as the new mr blood walked in talking about how cook needs to leave cook refused and got sprayed in the face with pepper spray "what the fuck was that for" you said to mr blood before following cook out.

"I know it's not the right time but can we please talk" you ask "can I do something first" he asks "yeah" you say as he walks off you walked back into the student lounge and sat down with panda "hey" you say as you lay her head on your lap playing with her hair "your better than him" you say to her "I miss him" panda said "you will for a while" you say making sure she didn't have hair in her face "wanna come dance at the park" you ask panda as that's what you do when your down "ok" panda said as you took her hand and you both walked to the park you both danced around to music playing from your phone "I like shiny" you start singing when panda joins in "things but I'd marry you with paper rings" you both start singing you both dance for a few hours before you walk back to effys house.

You walk into your room and see effy looking at your draw that you used to keep snacks in "how long have you have you known" effy asked "a week" you say sitting on the bed "I thought they were fake" you say "well are you ok" she asks "yeah I will be I wanna keep it tho" you say  "keep it then but you have to tell everyone" she said "they will notice when I don't drink" you say and smile you walk downstairs to see anthea isn't home again so you put a pizza in the oven and sit on the counter waiting for it to cook when it does you place it on the table and answer the door to see cook "wanna come for a drive" he asked you "I'm going out" you shout up to effy as you grabbed your shoes and walked into the car "holly paddy paddy holly" cook said "hi paddy" you said as cook lighted a cigarette you all scream and sing along to songs you drive for ages switching between cook and paddy driving.

After a while you stop under a bridge so paddy could drive the car probably cook got out and started cheering him on while you stood there cheering him on a little but not as much as cook after a while cook and paddy start smashing up the car but you just sit to the side "you coming on" cook says as he helps you onto the hood of the car where cook and paddy share a spliff "what did you wanna talk to me about" cook asked you paused "I will tell you later" you said not wanted to ruin the mood cook and paddy started talking about how they had to be there for each other when paddy starts swearing but after a while paddy falls asleep and cook puts him on his back "come on we can go to Naomi's" cook said as you both walked to her house in silence. When you got there cook took paddy inside while you sat outside on the grass "hey" cook said as he sat next to you putting a blanket round you you lay your head on his shoulder "I'm pregnant" you say quietly not knowing how cook was going to react "you being serious" cook asks as you nod "that's why your not drinking or smoking" cook said "yeah" you say as he kisses the top of your head while you both look out into the distance "are you ok you must be terrified" cook said which made you feel somewhat safe "I think so" you said as he placed his head on yours and you both sat and watched the sunset.

A few hours later cook walks you home "I'm home" you shout when you get into the house "hey" effy says running down the stairs "I told him he took it ok" you say "he's got a soft spot for you you know" effy says which makes you smile you hug her when anthea walks in and you give her the look of don't tell her "hi anthea" you say when she walks in "I'm so tired" she says and walks to her room.

The next morning you get woken up to effy shaking you "cooks in prison" she says to you "what" you ask "get dressed I will take you to visit him" she said as you put on a red shirt that was cooks (the one her wore in the first episode) with some shorts and your hair in braids effy drives you to the prison and you wait in the waiting room "hey peachy" he says as you smile "we're coming to your trial thing tomorrow" you say "we?" He questions "yeah we eff told me Freddie's worried sick" you say "I bet he is" cook says and you smile "I love you cook" you say as you get up to leave "yeah I love you too oh and can you tell jj you know" he asks and you nod and walk into the car "how was it" effy asks "we said we love each other" you say when you get home you chill.

The next morning you wake up for cooks trial you put on a dress with your hair 8n braids.

When you get there cook turns to see you effy jj and Freddie standing at the door you smile at him when he gets called in paddy comes running through the doors and shouts at cook to tell them to fuck off you walk over after cooks spoke to him and take him to a chair to talk to him the whole time to take his mind off it. You wait outside about 30mins later you see cook walk out with policemen you stay strong for paddy and walk to the car you and effy give him a lift home before driving back to effys "imma go visit Chris" you say as you get out the car and walk to Chris's grave "hiya altos happened I'm pregnant the dad got put in prison but he said he loved me before but I don't know how to tell anyone else and I feel like crap" you say as you sit and talk to him for a while before walking home.