flawless

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[ found written in a psychology textbook]

life is a fathomable, endless abyss of contradictions. it can either lead you to happiness, sadness or despair and right now i feel like i'm stuck in between. i don't feel true happiness but not to the point of depression as well. but i feel so confused. i don't know what's wrong with me. what am i supposed to feel? what am i supposed to do? i agree with myself that i don't have anything to feel sad about but i just feel like there is something wrong with me. like there is something in me that's missing. though what really saddens me is that people think i'm okay. i keep a facade unconsciously that everyone keeps believing. yet inside, i'm slowly disappearing into oblivion.

- julietta