One Name -- Christmas Special

Fight In My Head

Adrien's P.O.V
I was currently sitting in an all white room, on top of a fluffy white couch surrounded by blank white walls. To put it simply, EVERYTHING was white in colour. It was horrible. My body was inclined forward looking at a screen. The screen was huge, and appeared to be made out of clouds. Now you all are probably like, you are akumatised, why are you just chilling and all the other bunch of bullshit. Well thanks people, I didn't think I knew. I hope you noted the sarcasm in the last sentence. Let me explain it to all of you. Yes yes, from the start. So as you all probably know, I was sitting wondering why my father lied when an akuma came to me. Hawkmoth is a pretty persuasive guy. With the amount of negativity I was feeling, I gave in to him. That was when I faced reality. It felt like all my subconscious was gathered up and forced into a corner of my mind, that just happened to be this all white room. Note to self, add colour to your mind later, if possible. My body went in the hands of another alternate personality, Simalcrum or, as he called himself, Simon. The villain was doing what he wanted while dear old me was stuck in his own brain just watching. Now to all the oh so smart people out there wondering why I didn't leave, I tried that. It was horrifying. I would try to walk out and pressure would start building, opposing me. I could only last so long before it won and threw me back into the room. The only option I had left was to watch what was going on while fighting with Simon over my body.

I sat there looking at what was happening. I could feel dear old Hawky putting pressure on me, wait that is not me right? I'll just call me Simon and me me. Sounds confusing but hope you get it. So, Hawky was putting pressure on Simon while Simon somehow resisted it. The amount of pressure was incredible, to say that I was surprised Simon resisted it was an understatement. I saw Simon resisting it and doing what was on his, my?, head. This is really confusing. He wanted to find Marinette first, to get answers. I saw Simon going towards Marinette's house attracting a lot of attention. Not because he looked like a villain but because he looked really good. He looked like he had jumped right out of a magazine or movie. Women stole looks at him and men looked at him with jealousy evident in their eyes. When he asked Marinette to open the door, she fainted as soon as she saw him. He picked Marinette up bridal style and carried him to my so called "home". When she woke up she began a conversation being the good person she was.

I was not that surprised when I figured out that Simon somehow acts like me when I am Chat Noir. He was flirty and made many jokes. For some reason he seemed to hate me. He thought that I hurt Marinette. Now you would all agree that he is stupid. I am very smart. I would never hurt Marinette, she is my first best friend after Nino. She was so helpful and selfless, always helping others without thinking about herself. She was an angel. During the conversation, Marinette seemed a lot more comfortable with Simon for some reason. She also seemed more confident. I wonder why? She seemed like a confident, ass kicking girl right now. I felt emotions arising in Simon too. Their emotions were similar but he couldn't quite put a finger on it. I had only ever felt such a feeling once before. A part of me said it was what I felt for Ladybug but I refused to believe that. Simon apparently agreed with that voice. Simon did something that was unexpected, he kissed Marinette.

Her eyes widened and I expected her to pull back but then even she did the unexpected. Was it surprise Adrien day or what? She melted into the kiss and pulled back. I happened to enjoy it, the feeling of her pulling my hair, her legs around my waist, everything. I knew I was betraying Ladybug but now I myself was wondering something. Something I had always denied earlier. Even after Marinette went in the bathroom I was wondering whether or not it was true. The thought was - was I in love with Marinette?

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Simon's P.O.V
When Marinette went in the bathroom I decided to pay attention to what Hawkmoth was trying to say. I had been blocking his command for too long. I entered the mind I happened to share with that boy. I could sense that he had given up trying to escape. Not like he would ever be able to escape. Hawkmoth was asking me to take the Ladybug and Chat miraculous. I didn't wonder why he wanted them, the answer was clear. What I wondered was where I would find the miraculouses. I probed Adrien's mind for information on the miraculouses when I felt something unexpected. Adrien knew too much about the miraculous. He also knew an awful lot about the black cat miraculous. A little probing and the answer was in front of him. Adrien Agreste was Chat Noir. I don't know why such an oblivious person, Adrien protested against that, got the miraculous. I was going to contact Hawkmoth when me and Adrien had a war in the brain.

(Italics - Adrien, Bold - Simon)
You cannot give the miraculous to Hawkmoth.
That confused me.
Why not?
I could feel how much he hated that idea.
The miraculous should not get in his hands. It can cause something really bad.
And why should I listen to you?
I am not asking this to you. I am telling this.
Why not? You are already losing the war. Just give up.
I cannot give up. I will not give up. Ladybug would expect better. She trusts me. Paris trusts me.
I had to admit that his nerve surprised me. Even is such a dire situation he was determined to protect Paris. I would be lying if I said that I didn't admire him for that.
This is a war and no matter what I can't afford to give up. I cannot let Hawkmoth win. He can put me through hell and I still won't give up. I will not betray M'lady. She trusts me with her life and all that was not in vain. You will not give the miraculous to Hawkmoth. Not now, not ever. Not till I am alive.
He then started to put pressure on me, much more than Hawkmoth. Even in such a weak state he was able to block my and Hawkmoth's connection and was able to stop me from even touching the ring on his finger. He was a really strong person when he wants to be. I could now see why he was Chat Noir and why it mattered to him. It was not just because of Ladybug. It was also because he valued the freedom he got. Gabriel never gave him freedom a lot. He grew up constricted and therefore valued the freedom being Chat Noir provided to him. I gave in. He was correct. The Chat miraculous would not reach the hands of Hawkmoth till he was alive. He would fight till his last breath. I whispered something quiet that was barely audible. It surprised both me and him. "Good job Adrien."

A/N
Woo hooo!!! Adrien finally realised he loved Marinette. Do vote and comment your views. Love you all!!!

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