Inside The Waves (Abuse Izuku)

chapter 1/ ☯︎

Izuku's POV
6 am

I hear my larm clock beebing. I slowly reached my hand over to shut it

Beeb

Beeb

Be-

I stopped that larm clock and layed there for a while thinking 'do I really have enough energy to get my fat ass out of bed'. Which the answer is always no I don't. "GET YOUR LAZY ASS UP BITCH! " and of course he had to ruin my morning. I slowly got out of bed and made it. Then I walked to my closet then realizing. I have to buy a new uniform.. Damn it. Oh well. I can get a new one then I walk to school. I walk to the bathroom and brush my teeth then looked in the mirror.

Ugly ass

Fat

Kill yourself

Stop eating!

Pig

No wonder bakugo bullies you

Useless

'No please shut up I'm doing so good..' I groaned.

Cut yourself!

Come on you know that the only way to make me shut up

⚠ Trigger Warning ⚠

. 'your right.. ' I grabbed a boxs from under the floor border and opened it. 'who shall be the lucky one? ' I playfully said in my head. I grabbed one of my favorite blades cause it's very sharp. Damn my mental health is fuck up.

I put the cold blade near my skin. I looked at my old cuts from probably three days ago. I was doing so good.. I shut my eyes then slide it in deep. Damn.. I didn't remember how good it felt.

Cut

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I did at least 9 more until I stopped. I wash my wrist, cleaned it, then bandaged my arm. 'at least I didn't cut my other wrist' I said jokingly in my mind. I hid the box back where it was.

⚠ Trigger Warning over ⚠

7 am

I changed, grabbed my backpack then waited... Waited... GO!! I ran as fast as I can to the door then left. YES YES YESS!!

I finally escaped my "house" without my dad beating me. I ran to a local clothes store and saw where the uniforms are. I grab my size then payed for it. I quickly changed then ran to school. I was a bit late but at least I made it and got to my set.

(After school cuz I'm lazy and it's like 10 pm)

I gather my stuff neither my desk and packed up. Everyone else already left I know for a fact the kaachan is outside the door ready to beat my ass. I put a few more books way. I'm a bit nervous. "Should I go outside!?.. Or should I say here!? If I stay he's going come in the classroom. But if I leave he's still going beat me!" I muttered as I feel myself going into a panic attack.