Inside The Waves (Abuse Izuku)

Chapter 8/☮︎

Izuku's POV

I could feel his eyes on me as I started to eat. It was really awkward. I could hear him pull a chair out to sit next to me. He kept starting at me. I didn't know why he was doing this, he then broke the silence. "What did he do..?" kacchan asked. This was the most calmest I've have ever heard him before.

"Who?" I mumbled quietly, I continue eating as I started to feel my anxiety grow. I didn't know where this conversation was gonna go, so that's what really is making me anxious. "Don't act dumb on me, you know who." he spoke, as I could feel his gaze on me get more intense. He wanted answers that I'm too scared to say because of the consequences.

What if because of my bad luck,.. He.. Finds out. He'll definitely get really mad at me for staying and saying somethings. I could tell that kacchan is mad, but for some reason. He's wasn't mad at me. Lately, he hasn't been mad at me. Which is a good thing for me, but I don't know how to react when people are calm around me. The only people who are ever really nice to me are teachers, but I don't talk to them. I just nod my head in response.

But when someone asks me a question when clam. I get nervous. "You mean.. My f-father?" I slightly lowered my head as I was barely able respond. I stopped eating, feeling slightly disgusted in calling him my "father". "Yeah, that bitch. What did he do?". He said as he slightly lean in. I felt very nervous on how close he was getting. "What do y-you mean?" I murmured quietly. I think he could tell that I was getting nervous so he backed up.

"I just wanna know what. He did to you." he said, I could tell that he was trying to calm himself down. "I.. Can't. Say it.. Yet." I mumbled as I looked down at my hands. He then stayed silent for a while, then spoke. "Alright then, that's fine. But it's not good when you keep things inside bottled up." he said as he sat back in his seat correctly. I looked back up at the plate of food. I have eaten half if it and I feel so full. I felt to nervous to say that I didn't want anymore.

So I kept eating the food. It hurt a lot and felt almost nauseous as I kept eating. "If you don't want anymore, you don't have to continue eating" he said. He seem to have noticed that I was full and didn't want to eat anymore. I nod my head as I placed the fork back on the plate and sat there, in silence. For me, silence is nothing new to me, especially because I don't really have any friends or anyone to talk to. Everything is just quiet.

And I don't really talk much either. Except for the pleads for.. Him. To stop. That's really the only time that I speak. It's not that I don't want to, its just that I have no reason to speak up. It's not like they'd listen anyways.

It stayed silent for a while, we didn't make a single sound. He was probably just processing everything that just happened in a matter of hours. I was also still processing everything too, so I don't blame him for the silence. It was just really awkward and I kinda hated it. He seem to notice my discomfort and broke the silence.

"It's.. Cold. Isn't it?" he said looking away. "Yeah, it is." I mumbled quietly. "I'll be right back then" he stood up from his chair and walked up stairs. I waited for him. Wondering what he was gonna do. He was probably gonna get a heater or something. I didn't mind, in reality I was kinda freezing, but I didn't want to seem annoying or something. So I stayed silent.

I should probably leave, I really don't wanna be a bother to them. They all probably have better things to do then taking care for me. It was nice while it lasted, I've never felt so warm in like this in my life. Mentally and physically. This was really nice. But.. I stood up from my seat.. I don't deserve this nice treatment. I don't deserve none of this warmth. None of it at all. I should probably go back to what I deserve. A terrible man that treats me like nothing but a stupid toy to play with.