Bittersweet

FORBIDDEN

Afraid? Well, I sure do know a lot about that one right there. It's like a thorn in my side every time I feel or hear it, I've been here & let's just say it's not fun; at all. We all have secrets that others are sometimes just afraid of, and honestly, who wouldn't be?
True love? Well, let's just say I'm afraid of it. I'm indeed happy with someone else but the pain and torture (trauma) I went through: let's just say it's not easy & it'll never get better.
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How can you stop loving someone? Is it possible? Will you always have to relive the abuse?
"Well let's just say it'll always be there. The love you have for that person who used to be your everything at one point in time will never go away, especially if you experienced having a WHOLE HUMAN BEING with this person. Oh yeah, it's hard now but it'll only get harder — Trust me!"
Sincerely, Diary.
I would run into the kitchen every morning smelling a fresh cinnamon bread smell. Me (Reign), My brother (Xavier), & my older sister (Serenity) — until we grew into adults (me and my brother) and then he would just stop coming around.
"Hey, mom. What are you doing?"
"Oh, nothing sweetie just making some bread for Jordan."
"Well you might as well make that your son; he comes around more than the real one anyways."
She had made her cry — Mrs.Kingston had to walk away to get herself together.
She then came back and responded to what was said.
"You know. You just shouldn't say things like that."
"I don't know why. It's like he doesn't know us no more!"
What was said was all so true; He abandoned them cause he "needed space." Now you tell me differently.
That's when Justin entered the room; "Hey ma'."
Reign noticed the "ma" response.
"Oh wow, and he calls you mom already too?"
Justin was confused as he started to look around.
"Mrs. Evelynn? What's going on? "
"Nothing dear just Reign with her foolishness."
"Oh okay. 'My foolishness' we'll see about that Mom; you'll figure the truth out one day."
"REIGN ENOUGH"
Everyone just sat there and stared at one another as Mrs. Kingston started to burst into tears. As she had murmured something.
"He's still my son!"
Reign was so embarrassed, she didn't even know her mom was listening to anything she was saying. Cause Mrs. Kingston was right it was all just foolishness.
"I'm sorry Mom, I just didn't know anything else to talk about it's been 12 years since she's been gone, and not one phone call this whole week from him. It's kind of giving selfishness! I know you think about him, 'cause I do."
"Yeah, I do. It's just he'll come around one day, ain't no point in worrying yourself."
Then all of a sudden the conversation changes.
"So young lady, you know we have a family reunion in 2 days, right? You bringing Mike?"
"I had no idea and what just makes you guys think I'm with Mike?"
Her mom looks at her with a serious look.
"Girl stop playing with me! He's literally at your apartment every day and night like he ain't got his shit. Hey but at least you getting some."
"Lmao okay Mom."
Jordan had been sitting there for a minute now; quiet then Everyone else got quiet and Jordan looked up.
"So Jordan, what are you doing this weekend? You should come to the family reunion."
"Oh well I would but I'm sure if your son shows up he won't approve of me being there."
As he said that Reign looked up and stared at Jordan with a "bitch please" face.
"Oh you're coming, you're just as much as a family as anybody else, and if anybody gotta problem with it they can take it up with me! Oh, but you're going. Oh, also August will be there."
As Reign was saying that
"August would be there" 
she formed a smirk as if she was trying to be funny about the situation.
Her mom turned her head quickly after she heard her daughter tell Jordan
"August gonna be there."
"Oh, August is coming now?  I knew you two were in some type of entanglement."
Reign dropped her jaw as she started to say "What do you know about ENTANGLEMENTS?"
Reign started to zone out; She couldn't stop seeing her older sister in her head every time she'd blink. Then out of nowhere, she heard a tiny voice up there."I miss you too sister." That's when she came back to functioning "Umm. Guys I think I'm gonna head out I got some errand to run."
"Ok, sweetie see you on Saturday sweetie."
It's something crazy going on. She only hears that voice when something special is about to happen.
I guess you can put your hands together and await her brother finally coming back home for the first time in 10 years.
Things happen and I guess you can say there was a thing that happens there; she'll be getting to see her older brother for the first time in 20 years.
It's been a good 5 hours since Reigns made it home. She's on the couch watching The Chi as August comes through the door while he quietly walked to the bedroom. Not even 5 minutes before he walked to that bedroom Reign walks in.
"So you saw yo lil hoe while you were out?"
She says as she crosses her arms and looks at him dead in his eyes.
"Mane stop playing with me. You know I ain't out here doing that shit."
While he's saying that she walks away and goes back into the living room as she sits down and turns the volume on the tv up.
"I love you, mamas."
"Fuck no man. We not finna play this trifling ass game again."
As she says that he starts to walk towards her as he slides onto the couch and kisses her body from the bottom to the top, as he goes to the middle with his mouth he holds her crotch with his hand as he rubs and she moans softly.
"I love you too Daddy"
She says as he slides her panties to the side as he kisses her thighs and heads towards her crotch.