LOVE , THE HARDEST THING EVER

The change over

So the next morning nikky brought her box that looked like it contained her whole closet but I knew it wasn’t her whole closet because no matter how big that girl has clothes like a dispenser has water.so the first thing we got  started on was my make up , then my hair then my clothes this time Nicole got the door and she said that I should get my ass down there and I did I  definitely knew something about me had changed because James wasn’t looking at me he was staring and then I decided to look in the mirror omg I couldn’t believe myself I was wearing 5 inch stilletos with a chanel bag,my hair was straightened with a crop top and a mini skirt , this time when we arrived at school Nathan came and swooped nikky out so it was only James and I . This time when we walked past people they turned heads and during lunch as I was walking to my seat Jack was biting down on his lip and after lunch I went with James to Jack and Maya’s table and I bent down low  and Jack leaned In for a kiss and so did I , but I knew what I was doing , our lips were so close till I put my perfectly manicured nail in between and I said ‘ oh no you don’t you could have gotten all of this I said gesturing to my body ‘but instead you got all of that well whos the lucky boy now huh’ and I walked away with James right beside me.

i definitely love this new me .

When james was dropping me off I leaned against his car and then he started to kiss me , by that time Jack was driving in, but not with Maya but alone and I saw the depression in his eyes and the I’m going to jump off a cliff written all over his face , well not literally written but I could see it.So when James left I got up some courage and went to knock at his door, and he opened when he saw me I thought e would bang the door in my face but instead he invited me in and I was so surprised so I compromised ,so we were talking and I could feel the depressed look in his face so I reached out and touched his face  and I asked him if he is ok . and he started apologizing and crying , and that was the first time in a long time that he knelt before me and buried his head into my hands and cried,I wanted to say something and try to comfort him but I was to dumbfounded to speak. I knew something was going to go wrong but I didn’t know it was going to be him. I knew I couldn’t spend more time here so I got up and when I got up he begged me not to go , but I told him this ‘you made your choices all by yourself,now mine is all by myself , I am so sorry for whatever happened between us , but that little firework needed to be ignited and you didn’t do that so I guess I will find someone else to do that for me ‘ and I left. No matter how hard I tried to hate him it just wouldn’t budge my hatred for him was unknown and was not found , it was just silence and I knew that was all I could offer him , my silence.

The next day was a Saturday and James called asking me if I wanted to go to the beach  and I was in the mood for a beach a tan or a little sun , because I have been in the dark for too long so I said it was cool and he came to pick me up. I had to buy a new bikini  because I had a swimsuit before and thank God I had time to go and get one because even my youngest cousin who is 10 would not want to be seen wearing that swimsuit. So this time I took my dressing up a notch I curled my hair ,and wore my bikini under my beach dress and some flip flops and I was set to go.

AT THE BEACH……

SO we were talking and laughing , then I said I wanted to surf and he was surprised and our conversation, went a little something like this …

Riley; hey , lets take a wave

James; looking surprised; what, not to be sexist or anything , but you’re a girl

Riley;my dad was the top surfer he won the title two years in a row and he died in a wave which was a big shocker

James;(coming closer to her) I didn’t know , I didn’t want to bring it up , I am sorry

And their faces were once again 2 inches apart and they kissed then I said can I catch a wave now and he said ‘hell yeah please’

When we  were back home we kept laughing and talking then he kissed me and he left,as he was leaving I decided to go see Jack again , so I went to his house I knocked but no one answered and I tried to open it, and it opened , I heard some noise upstairs so I took a cricket bat lying down on the floor beside the vase and I went upstairs,I went into Nathans  room and it was empty and since they didn’t live with their parents they was a spare room which was also empty and there was only one room left which the noise was coming from so I went there and opened the door and….i….i saw Jack and Maya actually …having a big affair and when I opened the door I dropped the cricket bat and when it landed on the floor Jack looked back and I ran and didn’t look back and I wondered to myself wasn’t that the same boy that was crying yesterday on my hands and saying he loves me and I ran to nikkys house and not to suprising she was with Nathan and they were watching a  movie together and when I arrived at her house she took me to her spare room and asked me what happened and I just said everything and Nathan was shocked and we were surprised and since I tell both of them everything they knew about the incident that happened when he was crying so they knew…..