Bittersweet

Tales of the Past

"Poñeta Soren. Hindi ako nagmumura pero kailangan mo 'yan. Deserve mo ang isa pang poñeta." she hold her chest and tried to control her breathing.

I didn't tell her to run. Why is she so upset?

"Sit here and relax."

When she forcefully placed her sling bag on my table, I laughed. I notice moisture on her forehead and the strand of hair in her lips.

That's cute.

"So...did my sister follow you here?" I looked around just to make sure.

"Hindi. Nandito ako para kausapin ka ng masinsinan," bigla niyang hinipan ang hibla ng buhok na nasa kanyang labi. "Do you think we are joking about Amalia's baby?"

I sigh and push back my chair. I can't help but cross my legs. This topic once again.

"I'm not. That's why I stay away for a while." I confess.

I grab for my coffee, but she stops me from doing so. Why is she so aggressive, she's so small and weak yet she's kind of intimidating?

When I saw her in the field with Hunter, I know she wasn't like this. Her eyes were filled with joy that day, but today's na uh. That's passion I'm looking at.

She's determined about Amelia.

"You're a coward. Bakit mo naman tatakbuhan ha? I thought you're here stomping your feet or biting your nails because you nervous but instead," kinuha niya ang isa kong notebook at saka ito itinuro, "You're studying!"

"Isn't that obvious?" I sarcastically asked.

"Seryoso Soren, hindi pa kita masyadong kilala but can you tell me what you really want in life?"

To leave Ph?

"To graduate and go to Malta."

"Because of the job? That's why you're so desperate?"

I giggle. "I'm not desparate Harelle. I'm trying my best."

"To what?" napatayo siya at tsaka ilinagay ang kanyang mga kamay sa kanyang bewang. "For who?" she continued.

That suddenly punches me in the chest.

"Who are you trying to impress huh? Your sister? Your parents? Classmates? If no one is pushing you to do what you're doing right now. Loosen up Soren,"

Kinuha niya ang libro ko sa tax at ilinapag ng napakalas sa lamesa. That's new and she's not aware, I... understand.

I hate it when someone's touching my books though.

"This? That? You're killing yourself. You don't need to try so hard to be perfect. You're enough Soren. Just chill!" she pushed her hair back and look around.

When she realize she's receiving a lot of attention, I smirk. I let out a scoff the moment she sat down.

Oh God, I was dying to hear someone say, "I am enough." This is enough. Everything I have is enough.
This is what it if feels like huh?

"I'm not ready Harelle. I don't even know Amalia nor see her at the club. How did I fuck her?"

Her eyes widened for a second then she cough. What? I thought she's here to console me. Now that I'm telling everything she's shock?

And when did she become attractive, damn it.

Her short hair suits her.

"Okay, that caught me off guard wooo!!" she massages her shoulders and blink rapidly. "Ganito bumalik ka sa bahay niyo para mag-usap kayo ok?"

"Walang mapapala ang hindi niyo pagpapansinan." she went on. She has such a wide grin that it makes me smile as well.

"It feels like you learn a lot from me huh?" fuck I can't stop smiling.

"You've always been my excellent adviser and my special someone," she jokes,"now that you're in such horrible shape, it's my turn to give you a lesson because you need it."

"And I am glad you're here." I say before downing a bottle of coffee and look at her while she types something on her phone.

To be honest Harelle,

I'm disappointed because...I let myself drown in my studies and ended up ignoring your existence. I'm disappointed because I'm afraid to admit that I care about you. And I'm sorry I let Hunter court you. Damn it, it's too late when I realize I want you for myself.

"Huh?"

That gave me a heart attack, for goodness sake!

"Pleaseㅡsnapping your head like that, no. Please don't do that next time."

"I thought your saying something." She says with a grin on her lips, followed by a giggle.

Damn it that sounds lovely.