Dark Thoughts

Beautiful End

Dear whoever
I wish to die
My greatest wish
Is for my story to finally end
I have no will
Nor reason to wish this story to continue
But i won't die the same as others
It's not for my own selfish reasons
That i wish this to end

No
I wish this to end
Because i have no purpose
And because
There is no longer any beauty in this world
And if there is no beauty
What purpose serves existing?

I wish for nothing more than beauty
Actual beauty
Not perfection
Nor relations or acceptance
I wish for nothing more than beauty

But for so many years
I have searched for beauty
To no avail
My eyes see naught but filth
This fake ideal that Beauty is perfection
But that isn't true beauty
Beauty lies in the reality of imperfection
The acceptance that nothing is perfect
That only accepting what is imperfect
As being perfect

But as i said
I see naught but filth
Filth that comes from perfection
And Injustice
The injustice of death

Because why should one who is innocent die?
When someone who is sinful will live?

I have met many people in my life
Non of them good
And non of them as awful as myself
If i had wings like an angel
They would be broken
Ruined and damaged
For he who shall sin shall loose a feather
He shall loose the beauty of his soul

So how do i wish this to end?
I wish this to end the same way it begins
With beauty
A beauty that outshines the filth in this world
A beautiful end which will create
A light of beauty which shall guide others
Towards real beauty

That is what i wish for
A end so beautiful
That even a soulless being
Such as myself
Will experience the true beauty

I wish to die

I wish for a beautiful end..