And here we go again

my love

What an chaotic day it has been, now hours later Frida was at home again feeling empty once more. She was ashamed of her behaviour earlier and she was scared of what her friends, of what Benny might think about her.
She had overreacted and she knew it but she was sensitive especially because of her confussed feelings for Benny and everything that has been going on in the last months.

Benny on the other hand was also at home but was very nervous and restless. He had left shortly after Frida as well as the others, they decided to meet again after chrismas and new year maybe the situation would be calmer than.

He couldn't stop thinking about Frida and he was worried death about her but felt helpless. An old reflex hit him suddenly, the reflex to always be there for her when his treasure felt bad. Without really thinking about it he grabbed his belongings, got into his car and drove to Fridas house, hoping to find her there. When he arrived there around 20 minutes later he saw her car infront of the garage and lights inside the house, she was there for sure.

Trembling a bit he walked to the entrace and after a few second of hesitation he pressed the button of the door bell waiting for her to open. It took Frida some seconds to realise that her doorbell indeed had rang, she didn't expect someone but still she decided to go and look who was there. When she realised it was Benny, waiting patently for her to open she immediatelya began to sweat and her hand began to shake. She didn't expect to see him again but knew she needed to open.

She slowly put her hand on the doorknob and opened, starring directly in his eyes.

"Hi" he said somewhat shy

"Wh...what are you doing here?" the unsecurity in her voice noticeable

"I was worried about you after you know what happend this morning"

Frida still starred at him she didn't expect to hear him say that "Oh you shouldn't have I'm fine thanks for caring" she said and was about to close the door again but Benny put his foot

"Frid" he said in a soft tone "please talk to me. I can see that you're not feeling well and I'd like to help you"

"Nobody can help me it's better if you leave" the truth was that she was scared to open up with someone but she knew she could always talk to Benny so she gave herself a jolt "Okay come in" she finally said and opened the door again. He hurried to enter before she could change her mind again. He took of his coat which was full of snow and also his shoes and left them at the entrace. Frida just watched him, crossing her arms in front of her belly

"Come on" he said an unexpectedly took her hand, leading her inside her own living room even though he never was in her home befor, the living room was to see from the entrace and so he just entered "Sit down" he demanded but was careful to not sound harsh

"Who are you telling me to sit down?!" She asked annoyed, didn't even knew why. He was so caring and she just shuted him out for no reason

Benny looked at her with a pinch of a hurt expression didn't really know what to say "I...I'm sorry I...I didn't mean to be ruder or so I just wanted you to be more relaxed so we could talk without interruption"

Now she felt bad, she really didn't know what got into her she wanted to have a normal conversation but she was very scared of getting hurt or hurting him.

"I'm sorry" she whispered and looked down "you sit down I'll grab some water for us" she said and hurried into the kitchen leaving Benny alone. He sat down on the big couch and patently waited for her to return. He really didn't know what to expect.

She returned some two minutes later with a bottle of sprinkling water and two glasses in her hand. She set them down on the table, filled the glasses up and than sat down next to Benny with some distance between their bodies.
Neither of them really knew what to say or how to start a conversation, especially because they knew that could be turn out to be uncomfortable