winter bear | kth x reader

fifth chapter (last)

Time flew by so fast. It was our graduation day. Taehyung is doing well with his career. He was really busy with music as I am busy with preparing for graduation. Today is the day where we would be able to meet again after a two weeks.

After the ceremony, I immediately went to him as he surprised me with a bouquet of roses. We shared a kiss and embrace afterwards.

"Congratulations, my love." He whispered as he tightened his embrace.

"Thank you." I said. We waited for Jungkoon to meet us, so that we can go together to Namjoon-hyung's café for a mini celebration.

THREE YEARS LATER

"Hey. I'm home." A voice spoke, which disrupted me from my thoughts and daydreaming.

"Hey, how was your work today?" I answered. Before I could face him, I felt his arms wrap around my waist, and putting his chin on my shoulder. We looked at the scenery outside our balcony as we listened to his song for me, Winter Bear.

"Listening to hyung's song again?" Jungkook whispered.

I smiled sadly before answering back, "Yeah. It's his birthday today."

"I know. Do you want to visit him?" He asked as I turned to face him.

When Taehyung died on a car accident, I spent the rest of the night on the hospital, blaming myself for texting him to hurry up. Our family and friends were there for me. However, Jungkook was the one who stayed with me the most. He is always there when I needed him during those hard times.

"You know that I love you, right?" I whispered as I looked into his eyes— the eyes that held the purest form of love one could give another.

"I know, but you would never love me as much as you loved hyung." He answered.

He's right.

Most of the time I think that Jungkook is better off without me. He could find someone better than me, but he didn't. He knew I love Taehyung, but he still stayed. And now, three years has passed by, we are married and I am currently pregnant with our first child.

We brought flowers to the cemetery. I stared at his name on the grave and felt tears flow down on my cheeks. Jungkook wrapped his arms around me and comforted me.

"I'm okay. It's just that it's the first time I came after the funeral." I assured Jungkook. He nodded and smiled sadly.

"You know, hyung and I talked before..." He started

"About?" I asked.

"You. He made me promise that no matter what happens, I should take care of you, be there for you, and love you." He shared.

"He did? When?" I asked again.

"Yes, remember the time back when we were in our second year and he was fine with you attending my basketball game instead of joining him in his audition?" He asked and I nodded before he proceed, "Before Namjoon-hyung talked to us, he approached me and told me that I am the only one he could entrust you with if the two of you would not last." He said in a sad tone.

"Oh." I whispered.

That was all I could say. If we would not last? We promised each other that we'd walk on the park and feed the ducks and pigeons as we grow old together. We even have plans for our future children. We had our future mapped out, until destiny broke us apart.

"Can I spend some alone time with him?" I asked Jungkook and he understood.

"I'll be waiting in the car." He said and I nodded.

After he left, I grazed my fingers on his name and recalled our memories together.

As we approach the bridge where we always feed the ducks, Taehyung looked at me and smiled.

"When you graduate, I want us to get married and have children."

I smiled sadly as I remembered his words. "You even wanted us to feed the pigeons and ducks as our children run around the park."

I sighed, "Jungkook doesn't deserve being loved that way, right?" I said with a sad chuckle as I wiped my tears. "It's been three years and I can't seem to move on. Maybe it's because I never visited since you left us. Or maybe I kept on blaming myself for what happened. What should I do, Tae?"

Jungkook was the dearest person who saved me and my broken heart. He was the one who never left my side as I work hard to regain myself. I lost myself the day I lost Taehyung, but Jungkook helped me realize that losing myself would bring Taehyung despair.

He didn't deserve a broken me, but he didn't care. He guided me as I move on from sadness. He helped me to be fine again, to do my best, and to love again. He always reminded me that Taehyung wouldn't be happy that I am not okay. He's always behind Taehyung to me, but he doesn't deserve it. Today, I'm ready to let go and move on.

"I love you."

Letting those words pass my mouth, one more time, for the last time. I stood up and left Taehyung's grave, I feel myself letting go of the burden of his death. I feel myself stepping forward for him, for Jungkook, for our baby, and for myself. Jungkook got out of the car and walked towards me when he saw me approaching.

"Where do you want to go?" He asked as he opened the car door for me.

I thought for a while before replying, "Hey, let's live in Busan."

A surprised look painted his face. His plan of going back to Busan after college changed after what happened. He didn't want to leave me alone as I deal with the loss. He wanted to live in Busan after we got married, which is a year after Taehyung departed, but I didn't agree because I'll be far from Taehyung. Now, I want to make Jungkook feel that he's not behind him, and that I can love him, just as I love Taehyung, or maybe more.

"Are you sure?" He confirmed as he held my hands.

"Yes. I want to live with you and our baby in Busan." I answered with a smile.

He hugged me and pecked my lips before whispering, "I love you."

I smiled. This is the happiest I've seen him after a while. I looked into his eyes and caressed his cheek, "I love you."

It's true. This is the first time I said it where I felt my heart beating fast and burning with intense passion. I'd work hard to show Jungkook that I love him. I'll make him happy just as he does to me. I'd make sure that I can say to myself that I am worthy of his love.

As we rode home, I looked at the window outside and reminisced how my life story was written. I learned a lot by falling in love with a man named Kim Taehyung. He'll always hold a special place in my heart.

I love you, winter bear.
Sleep tight.