Angel In The Shadow

Chapter 1 (Look into the future)

I didn't mean to kill them. I swear that wasn't my intention when I started this. I just wanted to be heard. I wanted to be respected. All these people who used to dishonor my existence now cower at my presence. It's pathetic. Out of all the cowards my father is the biggest one, little does he know he is the reason I'm like this, he is the reason so many people fear me.

I have inherited the name " Angel in the shadow" mainly because in the daylight I come off as "sweet" or "precious" but when night rolls around I'm not the same person as in the light. In the shadows people respect me out of fear. They say that my behavior is unrecognizable. It's "frightful" or "evil" as some would state.

It honestly wasn't my fault. I used to care so much about people, I even gave them 2nd 3rd and 4th chances when they didn't deserve it. If I could go back in time and say one thing to my younger self it would be to "Stop caring about people who don't give a fuck about you. It's not worth the pain. Let them go." Maybe just maybe if I would've know that piece of advice earlier we wouldn't be in this situation. Salt and sugar look the same babe, you just got to learn how to find the difference between the two.

My father wasn't exactly the greatest role model, he manipulated me at a such a young age that eventually I thought what I was doing was normal when it really wasn't. From the age of 3-16 I've trained and worked as the Mexican mafia assassin until my mom decided it wasn't the life she wanted for her daughter. Funny how she couldn't've pulled me out of the family business years ago. Well I guess it's better than not getting out.

I love my mom to the moon and back but I can never understand why she made me think it was okay for my father to hit me. I'm just realizing at the age of 17 that what he was doing wasn't to make me "stronger" it was abuse. My father was abusive towards me and my mother.

I've always read about that (Y/N) life and I've always wanted one. I've always wanted to find my prince charming and live a happy ending, but I know know that it's not as fun or easy as it seems. I want a (Y/N) life not an Emersyn Fox life. My life is exactly what I wanted to avoid.

I'm only 17 years old and I've been manipulated by my own father, abused, forced to marry someone in the Mexican mafia, stabbed in the stomach 14 times in a row, kidnapped, watched my bestfriend die because of me and more that I do not wish to bring up again.

The day my mom and I moved to America is the day we became wanted in the Mexican mafia. We were now on the run from the mafia which my father controls. Not only does he want to find us but once he does he'll have us killed.

We know to much about the mafia to be kept alive. They all fear that well snitch to either the cops or another mafia. Even though we wouldn't do such a thing they still think it's too dangerous to keep us breathing.

My mom got us completely new identities so we would be a little bit harder to track down. She told me not to get attached to America because if they find us we're gonna have to move to a different state.

It was too late for me not to get attached the minute I met Isabel. I'm convinced she's my soul sister. The moment we bumped into each other in the school hallways was the second I knew that she would play a big part in my life, and I was right.

Of course Issy doesn't know anything about my past life. My mom and I made up a whole backstory for when it was needed and when I met Isabel it was required that I tell her my fake life instead of my real one.

I wasn't doing it to be a bad friend I was doing it because I needed to protect her. If my father ever found out that she knows anything about the mafia he'll have her killed.

My father already killed my older brother Jonny for running from the mafia so I know what he's capable of. He doesn't have mercy. He'll chose the mafia over family without hesitation.

It wasn't my fault that they died. If you want someone to blame, blame my father and all the people who wronged me. They're the one's who made me who I am today.

Hello loves this is chapter one of my book and I'm hoping to see some comments!!

I know this isn't the best chapter and probably not what you guys were expecting but trust me it's going to get better... hopefully. Let me know what you guys think! I love to hear your opinions and comments. I also hope you guys understand why they gave her the title "Angel in the shadow" because I know I made it sound a bit complicated sorry about that.

~Love Ray