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T.W mention's of an E.D and S.H
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"You are in my way"

I hear someone say and I already know who it is, like who can forget that beautiful voice " oh sorry " I say a move away. I look up and Vincent and he sat down and rolled his eyes, rude

" Nov get your ass over here" I hear Ralph's voice call me I say a low goodbye and leave to the back where Ralph was. " Girllll guess what " Ralph says as soon as I walk into his office " what "

" last night I got a date with this hot ass dude ok right, and I just wanted to tell you that we are closing early tonight" He says while getting up and motioning me to follow him " really Ralph that's amazing who's the lucky man"

" oh Nov he's so funny and really hot not to mention" he says as we walk up to the front and there is someone and the register and as soon as I look at who it's is I see it's Oliver " Hey bella ragazza working again today"

( pretty girl )

" yep Oli, what do you want today" I ask him going up to the register not before Ralph elbows me in the side raising his eyebrows, " just the same black coffee like last time, wait do you still have lemon tarts" he says, I nod my head and he hands me money and I go and make his order

I take an extra long time to make his order because I do not want to go over there and face the rath of Vincent just sitting there in all his glory. So I slowly walk over there and place his drink down along with his tart and walked away.

" uhhh missy how in the hell do you know that fine as hell man" Ralph says smirking at me " well I don't really know Oli I know his friend Hayden better"

Ralph tells me the plan for tonight that I am going to lock up while he leaves early to go and get ready for his little date tonight. The rest of the day goes smoothly and there was a decent amount of customers too. But when I close the store it's really dark out and I made the mistake to walk today.

I start headed the direction of my house in the dark night wishing that I drove today. I mean there are usually no scary people on this sidewalk and even if there was I would be able to take them with my amazing fighting skills. A breeze goes by that makes me shiver and cruse this bipolar weather until I get distracted by the sound of a loud car.

I look to my side to see a black car pull up next to me and roll there window down and low and behold it's Vincent siting in the car with all his might. " why are you walking in the dark by yourself" he asks me " well I was just walking home that's it" I tell him not making eye contact

It's silent for a moment or two before he tells me to get in " why would I get in the car with a complete stranger" I tell him " unless you want to freeze to death and walk in the dark for the rest of the way to your house I suggest you get in" he says in a annoyed tone

I think about it for a couple seconds then I decide  to take the risk and get in the car. It's silent the whole ride to my house except for when I tell him my address. And when we finally get there I say a low thank you and shut the door. I don't hear his car leave until I'm fully in the house.

When I get inside I see my mom standing there " who was that" she asks me "Just someone I know dropping me off" I tell her looking ever where but her "look at me when you are talking child" I do exactly that " you were off whoring around weren't you" she yells at me walking closer to me

" no mama I swear he was just driving me home from the bakery" I say trying to keep my voice from breaking because of being yelled at. The next thing I feel is a slap on my cheek " don't you dare talk back to me and who was I kidding no one would ever want you with how fat and disappointing you are" she spits with venom laced in her tone before walking away from me

I immediately run upstairs to my room and shut my door. I go into my bathroom that's located in my room and look at myself in the mirror the mascara that I had put on is now running down my face and a red mark is starting to develop on my cheek

Mama has never hit me before but I guess I deserve is for being a disappointment to her I sigh before taking  my makeup off and trying to stop the tears from running down my cheeks the only words I can hear is her telling me that I'm fat.

I lift my shirt up and look at my stomach. I new I should not have eaten all the Mac n cheese yesterday you are going to get fat nova ughhhh. I don't have the best relationship with food when I was living with my real father I developed a really bad eating disorder.

I would not eat for days due to no one feeding me and when I did I would feel so mad at myself that I would cut the side of my stomach. when I moved in with my brothers and my dad my they found out about it and they tried their best to get me to have a healthy relationship with food. I have gotten a little bit better with eating but sometimes I have my bad days

And today was one of those days I didn't eat all day trying to distract my self from the hunger that I felt. I have been one year sober from cutting my stomach but every once in a while I think about doing it to distract my mind from everything mostly my mother

She has never hit me before usually it's just comments here and there but that's what mothers do right she is just trying to do what's best for me. I look at the razor that's in my shower thinking about the how silent my mind and all the thoughts I had when I would cut my stomach.

I shake my head and decide to take a shower to clear my mind. But that just made it worse I couldn't stop thinking about it. I grab the razor and just look at it and before I know it I'm taking one of the blades out and putting it against my stomach. '' No nova don't do it you have gone so far and you don't be able to wear all your pretty clothes with a visible mark on it'

I hesitate for a second before putting it down and getting out of the shower and putting on some clothes and I decide to to do some home work to distract my self.

I hear a knock on my door and I tell the person to come in " hey nova Cole made pasta for dinner do you want some" I hear my dad ask me " um no thanks I'm not hungry I ate not to long ago at the bakery" I say lying straight through my teeth " okay hunny if you change your mind just tell me" I mutter a okay and continue to do my homework until I fall asleep

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Hey guyssss I know it has been a long time I'm sorry I have been really busy and I had really bad writers block I will try to post more often I love all of you guys so much ~ Love J
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