Tronnor (Vidcon)

Chapter 10

Tyler and Troye leave the room and I look at Ricky.

"This is a mess" I say, "he hates me now".

"No he doesn't. He just doesn't understand why you won't tell him. He probably feels like you don't trust him".

"But I do trust him. I just can't talk to him about this".

I put my face in my hands and can't stop the tears from flowing over my eyes. I am usually a more private person but I can't help crying right now.

"Connor, please stop crying".

"What am I going to do?" I ask through tears.

"Come with me" Ricky says and links our arms. He brings me into the bathroom and sits me on the toilet.

"I am not going to let him see you like this" Ricky says sweetly.

"He already has" I say and look up at him. Ricky looks surprised but before he can say anything I tell him what happened.

"When I came back after talking to you about me yelling at him, I broke down in the hallway and Tyler dragged me into the room; Troye witnessed everything".

Ricky puts a hand on my shoulder and says "it's going to be okay Con".

"No it's not...he is going to hate me until I tell him, and if I do tell him he will hate me even more. I have used him ever since he got here".

"What are you talking about?" Ricky asks.

"I shouldn't have let him sleep in the same bed as me. I shouldn't have let him cuddle with me. I shouldn't have let him tell me I was amazing and how proud he was of me" I say and feel like crying again.

"Connor, if you didn't realize; he initiated everything. If he didn't want to sleep in the same bed as you or if he didn't want to cuddle with you he wouldn't of asked. Also, he wouldn't lie to you and tell you those things".

I just stay silent and hear Troye and Tyler come back into the room. Ricky hears too and squeezes my shoulder.

He stands up and walks over to the bathroom door. Going into the room and closing the door behind him.

"Can I please talk to him" I hear Troye ask and can't take it. I walk over to the bathroom door and open it. When I walk into the room, all of their eyes are on me. I probably look awful.

"Con-" Ricky starts.

"No" I say sternly and he stops talking. I look at Troye and get nervous. He is just looking at me, probably really confused.

"I need to tell you something" I say and Tyler covers his mouth with his hand. I see him look at Ricky and Ricky does the same.

"Okay" Troye says.

I look up at him and before I can chicken out, I say "it's you".

It takes him a second to understand what I mean and when he gets it his eyes widen and his mouth drops.

He doesn't say anything for a long time and I turn around and start walking towards the door. I knew he would hate me.

"Connor" Troye says and I hear him run up to me. I stop walking and he says "Ricky, Ty, can you please let us talk?".

I close my eyes and really hope that they say no. I cannot do this without them.

"Sure" Ricky says and they walk towards the door. I open my eyes again.

"Just talk to him" Ricky whispers when he passes me. Tyler and him leave with a soft thud of the door and I can't bring myself to turn around.

"Connor" Troye says quietly. I don't say anything and I can hear him walking away from me. I then hear him sit on the bed.