JUST MY TYPE

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I feel like a failure not being able to take care of my niece and nephew.  GOD please help me work through this. It's not fair to them.  I hear someone say, mom you got this. Maur did you hear something? No why? I just prayed to God to help me hey through this.  It's not fair to them. I heard a voice say, mom you got this. Jane Juliet or as I would call her at times Julianne probably heard your prayer. She knows you are hurting. She wants you to know you can do this.  Maur but never have I heard her voice since she died.  J your faith growing up with the church has always been with you. You may not go to church as you use to but your faith is there. I have faith in you that you will overcome your uncertainty and your feelings of been a failure.  Sweetie you never have been a failure even when you couldn't make something happen. To me a failure is someone who doesn't try.  Sweetie you never have been. Doc you haven't called me sweetie in years.  Your right I usually call you J, babe, or Jane or your full name. I just felt today called for it. Maur thank you. Jane I here for you always. Let's go downstairs to get a manicure and pedicure. Maur you can get both. I will get my nails clipped and polished without  nail polish. I could go for a massage instead. I will get the pedicure and Medicare while you get the massage. We should change though.
  Frankie do you know when Jane will be back? No auntie why? Just asking. I will call her myself than.

My cell rings when Maur and I are in the elevator.
Hi auntie.  Jane when are you coming back? Saturday. Is everything everything okay? I want to know the truth. What truth? Are the twins Frankie.  Why would you ask if the twins are Frankie? They resemble him alot when he was a baby. Oh. Auntie this is not my place to answer that. This  is something you should ask Christina.  I will when they return. Enjoy your time.  Thanks auntie.

Maur looks at me.
Jane I think we need to forgo the nails and massage and speak to Christina and Parker.  I agree.  We got to the sixth floor and stayed in and not their floor.
Jane what do you think Kiki's going to do? I  don't know but they need to be prepared and not caught off guard.  I am calling baby girl top right now.

My cell rings.  Baby girl you need to fly to Chicago. You can stay in our suite.  Why? Auntie Kiki called me.  She asked me if the twins are Frankie's.  I told her this is a question for Christina and Parker to answer.  I told her I would be returning Saturday.
I will catch a flight and have June come with me.  There is a flight leaving in two hours. Text me the hotel address and room number.  Will do. We are on our way to talk to them. OK. Thanks for calling me. I ended the call after we said we loved each other.

I called June immediately. June said she was closing the studio. Brian and the other two could do the shootings for Thursday and Friday.

I knock on the door and Parker answers it .

Jane what's wrong? Kiki knows and wanted me to confirm her suspicion.   Come in let me get Chris.
Sweetheart Jane and Maura are here to talk to us.  It's important.

Chris covers up June and comes in the lounging area.
Jane Maura Parker says we need to talk. Yes. My auntie Kiki called to find out when I  will be returning. I told her Saturday. She asked me if the twins were Frankie's since they resemble him when he was a baby. I called Avery.  She and June are flying here so you four  an figure this out. Jane I am not ready for this. Sweetheart it was bound to happen sooner or later
Professor I was hoping alot later when I was ready.  June and baby girl will stay with us and we will take the twins tonight so you flurcan figure it out. Jane I appreciate it but they can stay with us instead of you. The twins will stay with me for safety.  Sweetheart Kiki won't hurt them. Calm down.  Fuck how do you expect me to react. 

Ryan woke up crying which woke up June.

Maur let's tend to them so they can talk.  Thanks you two. They are family. It's not a problem.