Living my life (Dakota's story)

Welcome home tonight

It had been a couple weeks ever since we came back from my house. I had been extreamly depressed. I walked into the guest bathroom and turned on the shower, Andy was in his room changing so I decided I would just "shower" in here. 

I slipped out of my clothes and looked down. I walked slowly over and into the shower, blade in hand. I just looked at myself. I ran my eyes over every scar. I was ugly and no one loved me I told myself. I slowly dragged the razor blade over my already scarred arm. I watch as the blood ran off of it and onto the shower's floor. I made a couple more cuts and washed the blood off. I proceded my daily shower habits, to make it seem like I was actually showering. 

I stepped out and sighed. I decided I need to re-dye my hair black then add purple into it. I looked at my arm and then locked the door.  I grabbed my dye out of the cabnet and dyed my hair black. I added some purple to my hair. I got on my phone and went on twitter, letting the dye sit in. 

DakotaBVB: Feeling like crap today. I wonder what me and @AndyBVB have planned. :) #StayStrong

I hit the blue button and set my phone down. I just was humming to myself now. I figured it had been long enough and then rinsed my hair out. I smiled looking at myself. I put on my long sleeve Batman shirt and some skinny jeans. I added my BVB star and put in my inverted cross earings. I painted my nails black, added some band bracelets and walked out. I saw Andy sitting on the couch. He saw the door open. 

He was wearing a long sleeve black shirt and some skinny jeans. I noticed he had on his combat boots and his inverted cross earings. I smiled and he stood up. He opened up his arms and engulfed me in a hug. 

"I love you baby."

"I love you too." I whispered and stood up on my tippy toes to peck his lips. I went back down and just stood there. 

"What are we doing today?"

"Well I was wondering if you wanted to come to practice today and then we were gonna go out to eat." Andy whispered and kissed my head. 

"By the way.. I love your hair." 

"Sounds good to me and thank you." I smiled. 

I felt his chest move because he chuckled. I shook my head and stepped away from him. 

"When's practice?" 

"In a couple hours." He answered. I nodded and walked to the kitchen. It was noon now sow we had a couple hours. I opened up the fridge. 

"Hungry?" I called. 

"Yeah, I feel like I could a freaking cow." He called back with a chuckle. I shook my head and laughed. I grabbed some cheese and pastrami. I walked to the cupboard and  grabbed some sourdough. I took out the panni(?) maker. and started making a couple. 

10 minutes later I had made lunch.. and that includes the complaining I heard from Andy. I walked into the room with two plates and two Cokes. 

"Thank you, you could of killed because it took so long." Andy said over dramatically. 

"You know, I could just eat yours Mr.Biersack." I said hiding my laugh. 

"How dare you!" 

"I will do it. And when I come back.. mine better be here." I threatened and walked out to feed the cats. Batman was now 1 month old, that is what the vet said. 

I sat back down and saw that mine was gone. 

"Andrew Dennis Biersack." 

"Yes Mother?"