Stronger together

Chapter 27

Alex POV

Sam is kneeling down in front of me. Her wavy brown hair shapes her face perfectly. My heart is in my throat. Is this real? I drop to my knees in front of her. Nodding my head slowly. Tears welling up in my eyes and hers. She slides this perfect silver ring onto my finger. I pull her in for the most passionate kiss I've ever head and I hear a squeak. We break apart and I look around. Kara has Lena wrapped in her arms so tightly that if she were human she would be dead. Ruby looks at us with the biggest smile. Everyone has big smiles but looking at Sam and how her eyes are shining with unshead tears, it made me fall for her all over again. In this moment everything is perfect.

Kara pov
Watching Alex and Sam getting engaged is amazing and beautiful. I hope one day that will be Lena and I. I hold her tight not wanting to ever let her go. But there is this sinking feeling in my stomach. If Alex and Sam have completed there bond, where was Alex's powers? Why hadn't she told us?  I feel like we are not a close as we were. My heart clenched at the thought. Lena must have known what I was thinking. She come and holds me. I hope Sam and Alex are truely happy. Alex's phone starts ringing breaking the moment. Alex walks out of the room. I quickly excuse myself. I can feel the anxiety rising in my chest. I quickly and quietly race out the back door and fly. Flying has always helped me relax and think things through. I don't handle change well. Everything around me was changing. Things with Lena were getting so much more intense than they were before. Alex is turning kryptonian. Sam isn't going to turn reign again. Kal was turning into a destroyer. I fly faster as each thought and name ran thought my mind. I feel the tears rubbing down my face as I come to the realisation that my world and my family will never be the same. As the thoughts swim in my brain I hear the faint heart beat that usually keeps me calm. Thud. Thud. Thud. I focus only on that. I breathe in and out slowly. Focusing only on that.
"Kara, I know you can hear me, I love you' I hear softly on the breeze. As Lena spoke the words I heard her heart skip a beat. It made me smile and realise that as long as I had Lena everything would be ok. I slowly make my way back to Sam and Alex house. I feel guilty for just bailing on them. I get to the back door and I stop. I close my eyes trying to push the guilt and anxiety down. I feel Lena before I see her. She wraps her arms around me.
"Kara it's ok. I promise you I will be here no matter what happens. I swear to you that I'm yours. For ever. Please babe look at me." She whispers in my ear. I slowly look up. Working that she will still reject me. Her green eyes showed me that she won't leave. There was nothing but love. I sigh. I've been so stupid. I've been letting doubt get into my head. She smiles knowingly. She kisses my cheek.
"I'll be inside ok? Take your time." She says softly. I think she is nervous as well. She goes inside. I lean against the wall and slide down it till I'm sitting on the ground. She is amazing and so sweet. She is always waiting for me. I am so torn. I want to be with her but I want to keep her safe. I know kal will do something to hurt her if I am with her but I know she is safer with me. I rest my forehead against my knees. I really miss being with Lena. But I know her losing our child isn't my fault but it still feels like it is. All the guilt has been eating me away. I suddenly feel someone sitting next to me. I look up and it's Alex.
"I-um" I stuttered out Alex silenced me.
"Kara it's ok. I get it. After everything that has happened I get that you are so torn. But for once in your life be happy. You deserve so much happiness and love. You are so brave and strong. Lena will wait forever for you. She loves you so much that everyone can feel it. She was as broken as you when we first met her, as broken as u were when your cousin dropped you off with us. You guys make each other better and everyone around you better. Just like Sam does for me. Please be happy little sister." She says with so much love and passion I rest my head on her shoulder in tears. She truely is the best sister I could ask for.
"Alex I'm happy for you both. You deserve the best in this world." I say warmly. She gives me a one armed hug. We stay like that for a moment and then head back inside. I see Sam and I was about to apologise but she wraps me up in a hug.
"Kara you don't say sorry for how you feel! You are amazing. Thank you for being part of my life. You truely saved me on more than one occasion. Your the strongest person because you are surrounded by people who love you. Ruby loves you so much and I'm so happy to soon have you as my sister in law." She whispers in my ear. I hold her a little tighter.
"Thank you Sam" I say softly. I see Lena leaning in the doorway. A soft smile on her face. My heart beat a little faster.
"Go be with her Kara." Sam says sweetly as we end the hug.
"I think I will." I say. I look straight to Lena and she drops her base to her hands that she is fidgeting with. She only does it when she is nervous.