Stronger together

Chapter 14

TRIGGER WARNJNG! RAPE SCENE IN THE FLASH BACK! READERS BEAWARE!

Lena POV.
My heart shattered for the beautiful kryptonian. He did what to her? Alex had finished talking but I sat there stone faced. Trying to process all of this.
"It's not Kara's fault." I say out loud without thinking.
"I know, her theory is, this is what happens when you deserve nothing better. Lena you got to remember she was heart broken. She blames herself for everything." Alex says dejectedly. My heart just couldn't take it. I needed to talk to Kara. Alex refused to say the word in fear of losing Kara. But I have to know. I want to help her. I want her to feel safe with me. I think Alex can see my back and forth on my face.
"Lena. It will be ok. Just show her love. Be you. Just be there. It will help her tremendously!" Alex says wrapping her arms around me. She hugs me for a while. I think we both needed this. Just to talk and be there for Kara.
"Alex I'm sorry for everything I did when you were trying to help your dad." I whisper as she lets me go.
"Lena it was my fault. I should have let you guys in, I should have trusted in my family. But I broke that. I lost Maggie. I deserve that. I truely do. I wasn't a good person in the end. I'm so sorry for everything I did to you and to Kara. I know nothing will ever make up for it. But I truely am sorry." Alex cries. I hug her again. She is still beating herself up over everything.

After Alex finishes crying and cleaning her face. She slips her bad ass agent mask on again. I slightly chuckle. I do the same thing when I am in CEO mode. We walk out to the main room where I open a portal. I need to talk to Kara.

Kara POV
I wake up and notice Lena isn't here. I found her note. I sighed. This conversation it's going to be bad. Lena is going to leave me. I sit up with my back against the headboard. My knees to my chest. I rest my forehead on my knees. I don't want Lena to leave me but she will. I screwed up so badly. All of a sudden I feel a hand on my shoulder, I look up. Lean was looking at me worriedly. She sits next to me on the bed. She pulls me closer wrapping her arms around me.
"We don't have to talk until your ready babe." Lena whispers kissing the top of my head. She has guided me so my head is in her lap and she is running her finger through my hair. She always makes me feel safe. She is home to me. Where I can be me without judgement. I slowly sit up. I gingerly sit on her lap. Resting my head on her shoulder. She instantly wraps her arms around me keeping me close. I sigh. Just being here is amazing. She really is home. I sigh. I don't want to relive this but I have to tell Lena. She needs to understand how broken I truely am.
"I didn't mean for it to happen." I say softly. Lena kisses the top of my head. She starts rubbing my back gently. I cuddle in closer, like she could protect me from the bad memories.
"Babe take you time. I'm going to be here. Always." She says kissing the top of my head again.
"I wasn't dealing with things well. After you left. I started drinking. Badly. It wasn't so bad at the start it was one or two. Just to take the edge off my pain. This pod landed. It looked like mine. I was so happy for a second it could have been someone from home! But it wasn't did Alex tell you this part?" I ask softly. I don't want to talk to loudly. Lena nodded.
"I hated Mike. But he is dead now and it's my fault. I shouldn't have been drinking so much. One night I was drinking by myself at the alien bar. Mike was working there. I ignored him like I usually do. He poured me a drink and I wasn't paying attention. He put some blue kryptonite in it." Lena gasped. She held me closer but I couldn't feel it. I was lost in the memory.

Flash back

Mike just handed me my new drink. I was thinking about her green eyes. I messed up everything. I slam the new drink down. I ask mike for another one. He keeps bringing them to me. If I hadn't been drinking I should have noticed that were blue. I didn't feel so well all of a sudden. I slowly make my way outside. My head spinning. Mike comes up and wraps his arms around me.
"I called Alex for you. She will be here soon. I'll stay with you till she gets here." Mike says. He has a wicked smile in his face. I go to push him away. I can't move my arms. Mike starts to drag me away behind a dumpster. I try to kick, punch fly away. I even tried to scream. But nothing is working.I start to panic. 'LENA! HELP!' I scream in my head. That right she left me. She won't hear me. Mike lays me on the ground. He takes my pants off. Maybe I do deserve this after everything I did to Lena. He take off my underwear. I close my eyes. I don't want to se rebar he is about to do. He punches me in the face.
"Blue kryptonite and roofies. Perfect mix for stuck up bitches like you." He snarls as he slaps me across the face. I could feel the blood dripping from my lip. I couldn't move my body just wouldn't listen to me. He forces my legs open. Next thing I know there is a burning pain. He forces himself into me. I try to push him off me. The pain hurts so badly. My eyes start to water. I can't even cry. He grabs me by the throat.
"You like that don't you? You fucking slut!" He grunts.
"Your tight just for me! Take it bitch." He growls in my ear finally releasing my throat. He starts grunting, the pain getting worse. He is finally done. He pulls a knife out of his pocket.
"No one will want you now bitch." He snarls as he runs the knife deep down the inside of my leg. He pulls out and stands up. I watch him do up his fly, then a bang echoes. He drops to the ground dead.

End of flash back

I hadn't realised I'd been shaking or crying. Not until Lena wiped the tears away so softly. It was like she was afraid of hurting me.
"Babe that wasn't you fault. You know that right?" Lena whispers. Tears streaming down both of our faces.
"I love you darling. Always. Forever." Lena whispers. I can't respond. I'm lost in them memory still. I can still feel the pain. Lena holds me to her as tight as she can, rubbing my back and whispering to me sweet nothings. I hold into her crying into her shoulder. How can I be a hero if I can't save myself?