Alone, Trapped, & Scared

Chapter 6

The next couple of days were the same, the doctors checking up on me to make sure I didn't go into another coma. After about a week they said I could go home in two days, which means I'd be going home on Tuesday. After they told me that I. Got a little worried, did that mean I was going into the group home or back to my Dad. I hoped it was my Dad because he made me feel safe, yet I know things are gonna be a little different and take some time to get used to. But I was okay with that. I love my dad, and when u love someone things may have to change along the way.

I smiled at the word dad, it still felt foreign to me but I loved saying it. Then my mind slowly began to wonder to Keith. I had so many questions to ask him, but what if once I left the hospital I wouldn't see him again. A single tear slowly dripped down my cheek as I feel myself wonder more about him.

I started to feel sleepy and that's when the nightmares began.

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(Dream)

I was in a familiar place, quickly realizing that it was the school. I looked and as I saw the halls get flooded, that's when the strange things started happening. A person walked through me. Then I saw me walking down the steps, I began to figure out I was just watching. I fell and it looked bad, I saw my mom come and shake her head disappointed in me. That I wasn't her perfect child that ran a mile a day and drank smoothies for food.

My

Heart

Shattered.

When the person you care about most and thought would love you flaws and all sees a flaw they don't like and begin to hate on you, it feels like you can't go on. I felt like I couldn't go on.

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(No longer a dream)

I woke up in a hot sweat with tears streaming down my face. Did I break the promise, I wondered. No I couldn't have I think about it all the time. Never wanting to make a mistake or anything that would make her disappointed, but I didn't think I'd have to be the perfect child, did I?

I remember making that promise too my mom saying I would do anything to make her proud. Her words echoed in my head.

Baby, you make me proud everyday. Just please don't do anything that would disappoint me or hurt someone you care about or cares about you.

Her voice echoed in my head.

Promise?

I promise mom. Please I need you! Don't go.

I love you babygirl.

I love you too.

I'm thankful those are the last words I got to say to my mother. I'd feel guilty for the rest of my life if I was in a fight with her or something when my mother died.

My new question was, is being with my father making my mom disappointed?

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