Back with our Daughter

DAY 1 #30

(September 4,2018)

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"Leyla stay a sec"  said Dr. Clark as Leyla passed by. Leyla nodded and stood by his desk. Once everyone left he looked at her.

"Did you think about it?"

"Yes, will it be everyday?

"No just Tuesdays and Thursdays"

"will it be after school hours?"

"No you have a free period before and after lunch so it will be by then."

"Okay, So starting today?"

"Yes be here and I'll explain better." Leyla nods.

"Here is your late slip" she thanked him and exited his class. She walked slowly to her next class.

LEYLA

I am smiling way too much when I am lost in my thoughts. Damn you Onika!

"What are you doing out of class Nikkole?" Leyla rolled her eyes at the sound of her mother's voice.

"Damn don't you have a career to work on? No wonder its flopping shit."

" Answer my question!" Ugh! This is harassment. I thought of sending her flowers and something cute for her birthday but now she can choke on some saggy balls. To think I was going to change for her. I got to the class I'm supposed to be in and she still behind me talking. I opened the door and Mr. Charles allowed me in.

"Here, I was in Dr. Clarks classroom." He nodded and read the paper.

"You may sit down we are working on the journal." I nodded and sat next to Khira.

"the subject for today is trust."

"in general?" I asked.

" yes that get to it. It's the only thing we are gonna be doing for class. And as you write  you can tell me why you stayed behind." I chuckled and got my things.

"I stayed to answer his question of becoming his T.A. which was yes."

"you are not planning on fucking him?"

"nope. I am not interested." I smiled.

"you were drooling for him last year."

"doesn't mean I acted on it . I just found him sexy. That's all."

"who are you and  what did you do with Leyla." We both laughed.

Trust:

is built, it make take years. Once you brake it, its gonna take forever and more to repair. I take trust to the next level. I only trust one person eyes closed and with no doubt. I am learning to trust other people. Like my father and his mother. Trusting them has been good to me. they have showed me I can trust them with anything and everything. I am starting to trust someone new. And I am seeing I can, she doesn't judge me. she doesn't care. Once I see I am fully trusting her, I will show her my whole world.

I have one person I wanted to trust the most betray me. I don't know what to do about it. It feels like she literally played me. all of it, shows she doesn't really care about me nor my sister.

I am stuck between the trust, don't trust world. I think it was stupid of me to trust her and I should stop trying to trust new people. BUT! Then there's this girl that's earning my trust and she make me feel like trusting new people is not so bad.

So I have settled for, giving her and only her the trusting chance. Aside of her. no one else will ever gain my trust. Or be able to repair the broken bond.