Back with our Daughter

SO IT CONTINUES #34

BEYONCÉ
The past two weeks have the worst in my household.  Leyla doesn't come out of her room. Jay is sleeping in another room to not face me.

I... don't know if I meant it. Seeing the pain in her eyes killed me but I was tipsy. I saw her eyes die right in front of me. What could be going through her head now?

If she comes downstairs and you look at her you can see her eyes are dull, she doesn't talk, her smile is gone. She looks at me with nothing but hatred or disappointment, I can't differentiate it.

I know what I said, i know how i said it, but I never meant to say I want her dead. That's my child for fuck sake.

Same child you are pushing away...

Jay came downstairs looking around. "Giselle? Have you seen Leyla? She's not in her closet." I shook my head. She has been spending all her time in there. We excused her from school for a month but Michelle brings her homework, or she does it online.

"I been here all morning baby, I never saw her.  I'll call Nicki and check with her."

Phone conversation

"What do you need Beyoncé?" Ouch!
"Have you talked to Leyla? Jay can't find her!"
" oh of course Jay. I'll call him and let him know."
"You can tell me you know." She chuckled
"If you cared I would!"
"What makes you think I don't care?"
" you should know. Anyways I texted Jay and I have to go Leyla's calling."

Does she know? Does that mean that Jay knows? FUCK! He would have mentioned it wouldn't he?

I walked to the kitchen and Jay is not there. I went downstairs to the movie room and Leyla is laying on the couch staring at the black tv screen. She's gotten a little skinnier. I sat next to her and she flinched. I sighed. She sat up with her knees to her chest and hugged them. As I was about to speak, she ran away.

"She ran into the bathroom! Did you tell her something again?" I shook my head. He sighed.

"Are you ready to tell me what you and Ley talked about that night Giselle?" Asked Jay. I stared at him for a while.

"Why are you crying? Is it something bad?" I wiped the tears away and took a deep breath. He sat next to me taking one of my hands between his.

"You're going to hate me so much! But I didn't mean it, I swear... I was tipsy... I.. I....just.."

"Breathe, take your time"

KALINA
"She wants me dead... she does really hate me, I need to end this" I sighed, she continued, " I tried... I really tried to make her wish come true last night." She stopped talking, moving her hair out of her neck she has what could be a 3x3 gauze on her neck the same place she got shot. "Oh baby!" She wiped her tears away and said, " the bleeding wont stop, I am dizzy all day Kali take care of the girls for me" she took a deep breath yanking off the gauze from her neck. The blood started coming out again I panicked. She coughed which made it worse. I tried to put pressure on it but she was fighting me.

"Leyla Nikkole STOP!! Let me help you, you cant let her win. You cant go like this!

I sat up on bed, breathing heavy.. MY SISTER FUCK!!! I jumped  up from bed and ran to my closet to get dressed.