I am Right Here (a Hikaru no Go fan fiction)

Hoinbo Shuusaku

Sai followed Hikaru and Kawai-san in their many Hoinbo Shuusaku tours. The ghost had mixed feelings; he was happy to see his memories of his beloved Torajiro, but he was sad that Hikaru wasn’t happy.

Sai watched Hikaru searching everywhere for the ghost in hopes that he would find him. However Sai knew that it was impossible. He also wished the teen would see him again, but he knew that it wouldn’t happen.

Sai followed the boy to the cemetery in which Torajiro’s grave rested. Hikaru immediately began to run around in search of Sai. The ghost however, sat seiza by the tombstone of Torajiro with a small tear fighting to fall down.

“Ne, Torajiro,” Sai began to say as he stared at the tombstone. “Why does Hikaru have to suffer so much? It’s hard to see him search so much for me. I want to tell him, ‘I am right here. Right in front of you.’ But…” a small tear drop fell slowly over Sai’s cheek, “he can’t hear me.” Sai stopped talking and let the silence take over. He felt that maybe Torajiro would reply. But there was no silence.

He heard the birds chirping, the wind blowing, and not very far from him the voice of a young adult calling his name.

“SAI!!” Hikaru called out.

“What should I do, Torajiro?” Sai questioned, “What should I do when Hikaru calls me?”

“Hey Sai, If you can hear me say something!” Sai heard Hikaru make another worthless request, but for some reason Sai felt a useless hope.

“Hikaru!” Sai stood up and waved, “Look, I’m right here waving to you!”

“If you can see me, come fly here!!”

Sai’s eyes were now flowing with tears as he ran towards Hikaru’s side.

“Sai!!!!!”

The ghost looked at the young boy’s face as it slowly scrunched into a frown. The teen then turned to leave the cemetery as he said under his breath, “I guess Sai isn’t here…”

“T-that's not true…Hikaru,” Sai said sadly as Kawai-san called Hikaru and told him that they had to leave. Hikaru walked slowly towards the exit of the cemetery and left the dejected ghost alone.

Sai stood still as he saw Hikaru’s sad looking back running with an incomplete feeling hanging off his shoulders. Sai put his hand to he chest and said quietly, “I’m right here…”