"stay with me please?"

CH.13 stuck in the hospital...

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//.TW:hospitals.SH.//

(y/n gets up in the middle of the night and thinks about her past and everything bad that has ever happened o her she ends up thinking to much and desides to do what she promised herself would never happen she starts to SH she passes out and then wakes up in a hospital.)

//y/n's pov//

the next morning i woke up to beeping sounds and muffled voices. i didn't want to open my eyes. i knew were i was and i never wanted to be here again. but i did wake up. i opened my eyes and saw Karl and Nick sleeping on the couch next to me. i tried to move but i couldn't. i looked at my wrists and saw them bandaged up and then i saw that i had handcuff type things on me. they were comfortable and not to tight but i could get out. 

i was going through what they called a suicide attempt procedure. they took all my cloths,jewelry,and anything that i could use to try to harm myself. I saw Karl get up and start walking to me. i started to tear up and then i couldn't help but cry. "i'm so sorry i ruined your bathroom and i promised i wouldn't do it i'm sorry i really tried to stop myself but i couldn't i promise i tried, i tried so hard." and that woke Nick up. "your ok i promise its not your fault and don't worry about the bathroom as long as your ok." 

he said and i could see he started to tear up a little bit too. "are you ok, do you, do you need anything i can get in i can protect you i promise this wont happen again i can protect you i promise i can." Nick said while crying he kept promising me. this was the part i hated, when people thought it was there fault and when people thought that i was fine and tried to understand why i did it. "i promise you i'm fine Nick and i know you can protect me we are ok i promise i am ok." the doctor then walked in.

 "we can not discharge her until we know that she is ok and ready." she then walked to me and took the handcuff thingy's off. "are you ok staying in this room?" she asked. "yes." i told her. "i will be your doctor and i will get you female nurses, i will only serve you food your ok with eating and i will try my hardest to keep you safe. your friends here are aloud to visit you at any hour of the day and or night. are you ok with with these dissensions?" she asked. "yes, thank you." i replied. she asked the boys to leave the room for a quick second. she lifted up the covers and asked if i could show her my cuts.

 i did she checked on them and made sure they were not infected. she gave me the remote and made sure i was doing well. the nurse she assigned to me was very kind and caring she asked me about myself and also did anything i asked her to do. she was sweet. she let the boys back in and we sat in silence not knowing what to say or ask. "i announced that the streams would be delayed for a while." Karl said looking at me forcing a smile. i nodded at him and looked at Nick. he was looking at the ground and i asked the big question. "did you tell clay?" he looked at me and sighed. "i had to y/n. he didn't know what was happening when i asked for your information for the hospital stuff." 

he said. "is he mad at me?"  i asked again. "no, of course not. he is just upset that he wasn't here to... protect you. if anything he is more upset with me then he is you." he said. "i'm so sorry for causing all this trouble, please forgive me." i asked. "of course we forgive you, its not your fault." Karl said. the next few days was spent in the hospital from my new favorite nurse sneaking me snacks from the vending machines to the boys hanging out with me in my hospital room. i could hardly walk because of how hurt my thighs were, and all the pressure of my body on my legs was pushing blood to my thighs and then i would bleed out. that stopped though the last couple of days. today was the day i was finally able to go home. the boys helped me walk out the hospital and into the car.

 i felt a lot better than the last week spent at the hospital. right when i got home i face timed clay and told him everything and said sorry. he forgived me of course and then we kept talking about things he was planing and doing and what streams he has done and what me and the shroom trio are up to. i love talking to clay he is my best friend and always will be. i love sapnap and he is my best friend too but dream has always been there for me and i think of Nick as a little bit more than a friend. 

"LETS COOK!" i yelled when we got home. "already?" sapnap asked.  Karl then said" i think we should wait till your feeling bette-" "no i am feeling better and i wanna stream already so PLEASE CAN WE STREAM?!" i asked. "sure go take a shower and then we will stream." Karl said. and sapnap agreed with him. i ran upstairs got my cloths and a towel and got in the bathroom. i saw were it happened and saw that the carpet next to it had a small red stain from my blood. i looked away and got in the shower. i finished and changed into a light purple sweater to cover my wrists and some light grey sweatpants. i got downstairs and saw the boys setting up the stream. 

"your just in time, were finished setting up. i went to the counter and sat on it. Karl started the stream and then we waited for the people. they kept joining and joining until we hit 100k viewers we started. "HELLO!" we all said in sync. "today were doing a cooking stream and were making brownies. i will be the judge and help them when they need it. i will also be doing a q and a, you guys can ask me,nick, and y/n questions and we have to answer them honestly." Karl said. "we bought our own ingredients to make our own brownies." Nick said after. "lets start."