Just Enemies (KornxWai)

7. Ego vs Heart Part.2

***KORN'S POV***

The walk to the nurse is so intense that I barely make any sound. I keep following him close enough to not lose sight of him but far enough to run for my life if he suddenly snaps again. I'm not gonna lie, I'm scared to death right now. His face was so red and his grip on my wrist was so hard that I still have his fingers marked on my skin. 

He seems deep in thought, so I try to not disturb him. My phone buzzes and I read Pat's text. I'm sure he's gonna nag the hell out of me, but what can I do? I can't keep fooling everyone and even myself. And if he's my friend he will understand and give me the time and space I need. He invites me for a drink at the bar where Wai works and I'm praying to every saint that he's off duty today. 

I'm so concentrated on replying to Pat that I don't even notice that he stopped and almost knock him. I put my hand on his waist to support him while he regains his balance. Every time I touch him I know I'm already too far gone to even try to get back. Maybe Pat was right, maybe I don't have any self-love cause with so many people in this world it had to be HIM. 

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me, I didn't notice you stopped." My voice cracks and I fix my eyes on the ground, I don't wanna see that angry features again, but I actually was distracted.

My body goes stiff the moment I feel his warm hand lifting my chin. Our eyes lock and I see so many emotions trying to fight their way out - disgust, worry, hate, and something I can't tell but it's strong enough to make my heart beat faster. He removes his hand so fast that I even flinch. All I see is regret in his eyes and I won't lie... that hurts because I keep realizing the freaking mess I put myself into. 

"As much as I'd love to kill you. I said I was going to repay you so I'll stick to my word, and drop the scared look. It's even more awkward than this whole situation. How's your hand?" He says without making eye contact and keeping a few steps ahead of me.

"I'm sorry. It doesn't hurt much." I say so low that I doubt he heard it.

"Oh please, spare me the macho act, I know that must hurt like hell dude. You're bleeding. Let's go, hope you didn't break any bones. And stop apologizing, although I wished you said that on many other occasions, today you didn't do anything wrong, which is remarkable if I may add." I know he's having the time of his life making fun of me and teasing me. Usually, it's me who has the upper hand but not today, and he is savoring every second of it. I can tell that he is smirking even if I don't see his face. I find myself laughing and even laugh harder after noticing how it affects him.

I don't know why but my heart takes control of my mouth and I speak without wanting. Regretting the second the first word is said. 

"Thank you then. I know saying I regret it all will sound very fake, but maybe one day you will believe it. I'll try to show it next time." He starts laughing and I feel very confused. I'm being honest for the first time, showing him a vulnerable side of me that no one knows, and here he is laughing as if he's in some stand-up comedy show.

"That...that...was...good...I...almost...bought that pitiful act." He says while catching his breath "Dude you don't have to lie, I know you hate as much as I hate you. Let's not make this more awkward than already is and mark my words - next time you have the chance you and your friends will keep bullying me and I and my friends will keep wanting you guys dead."

My heart tights and I lower my head. All these hating words are starting to affect me for real. I don't know how much more I can handle until I break. 

"We will see then, one day you will actually understand that it's you who hate me only, and maybe you will know the truth. We have arrived. Thank you for bringing me here and saving me. Be careful on your way back. I know there's no use in saying this but ... if you need something-"