Losing someone you havent even met hurts. Really hurts. Theyre like family to you. Your best friend. There for you through everything and suddenly theyre gone and you couldnt stop them. You didnt even know until you opened up that message from their mom or dad or sybling. You didnt get to say goodbye. Your last message was cya. "Cya" you think "how could i just have put cya". You clamber on to your bed and sit there staring at your phone. You read through your old text messages. You laugh at the jokes that made you smile and cry where she said she was hurt. You feel helpless. You slowly put the phone down and lie back against the wall closing your eyes. The black empty space turned into memeries. Been asked to skype and you declined. You couldve seen her face. What she looked like. But you said no. Asked to phone. You never did it. How could you have not done it again. moments later your crying. Crying like you have never done before. Nobodys in the house so you just sit there crying. Shes gone. Shes really gone. And you did nothing to help. Your day was shit. But you always looked forward to come home and speak to her for hours. You cant. Shes not going to text you back. Unanswered texts is all youll have. You type to the person who told you. "I wish i was there, i couldve stopped her, im sorry, i couldve helped, i wish the best for you, tell her i said goodbye, and i love her, tell her shes safe now, i will be joing her soon" you send the text. Shes gone. Forever. And your left. Broken.
