Idk maybe because i like torturing you with over thinking and that youll never be loved because youre some fat ugly freak that people only talk to because they feel sorry for you and maybe that why some of your 'friends' talk behind youre back saying they wish youd go on the train tracks but not at night it shoukd be at day because you'll have more chance of being hit or you should take more tablets than you did because they really want it to work because you dont belomg here and you deserve to die but hey youre the sucker whos still there for them even after all this youre the one that has to call all of them to try and get them to come round for you just to walk 5 mins because unless its dark and no-ones around yiu cant leave the house with out someone being there because youre a freak tbat everyone will judge even people you dont know like seriously whats the point in doing all this when we all end up 6ft under anyway you only have one reason to live and hes gonna realise how fucked up you are sooner or later and then leave because no matter what people say they always end up leaving because its your faukt youre either a leech or you push them away and what you dont get is is theyre all perfect until they befriend you and then you mess things up EVERY SINGLE TIME like how do you manage that i dont understand how can you be so fucked up and selfish that you dont care about others so much you do the shit you do you need to get a grip or there will be no point. Maybe tgere is something in what he said i mean you asked for advice he gave it you didnt know him but he gave it to you. Youre joining the army soon anyway why dont you go for the front line youre more likly to be killed then everyone will be hapoy family has more money you make the counsilers job easuer no-one has to feel sorry for you everyone can stop pretending to like you itd be better for everyone but noooo youre gonna go for mechanic because youre stupid like that pkaying it safe and dumb why would you wanna live youre not gonna get far anyways i mean look at you!
