Random Astor Nonsense (AoC)

*Short* Bad Day

 Astor stormed into the room; rage painted on his face as he stomped over to his room. You sat there, having had a nice conversation with Kohga until that was interrupted by Astors aggravation. You sigh, And Kohga continues on happily as if nothing happened. "I think I should talk to him." You say, standing up and excusing yourself from him. He chuckles, already aware of your crush on him. "Go make your man feel better." He said, the grin obvious in his voice.

You felt your face heat up at him saying that and walked away embarrassed as Kohga laughed. You reached Astors room, raising your hand slowly as you were a little afraid to disturb him. Eventually you did knock, and a livid voice answered right away. "Go the fuck away!" He yelled, slamming his fist on something, probably his desk. You shook your head, sighing a little at him. "Astor, it's me." You say, trying to sound patient and kind but this man could really push that patience sometimes.

After some shuffling sounds Astor opens the door, eyes red and puffy, the telltale sign of a person who's been crying. He glared at you, trying to keep up his tough act. "Do you not understand what 'go away' means?" He huffed, giving you a scowl before slamming the door in your face. "Astor, just let me in so we can talk-"

You heard Astor sigh, and then him walking over to the door again. He opened it, looking at you with a more saddened expression this time. "What do you want?" He snapped, crossing his arms. You pause, not exactly sure how to put it. "Well, I want to make sure you're ok." You finally say, and he gives you a look of disbelief. "You want to make sure I'm ok?" He asked, raising a brow at you. "What do you really want?"

You sigh, pushing him inside and closing the door behind the two of you. "What the hell do you think you're doing!?" He shouted, weakly trying to struggle against you but he wasn't that strong physically. You picked the frail man up, placing him in his chair while he continued to try and push you away. "UNHAND ME THIS INSTANT YOU PLEBEIAN!!" He screeched, attempting to try and get out of the chair but you held him down.

"Not until you relax!" You shouted back, grabbing his wrists to keep him from hitting you. This went on for a bit, with him kicking and clawing at you and you just trying to keep him from hurting himself. Eventually Astor tired himself out, and gave in, sinking into the chair with an angry grumble.

"Now then, will you tell me what happened?" You ask, letting him go and stepping back. Astor grumbled some more before finally giving in. "I... failed again..." He huffed, turning away from you as his eyes teared up. You gave him a sympathetic look, wishing you could give this poor man a hug. "Astor.." You say gently, and he only cringes at how weak he feels. "Those damn brats keep getting in my way, always beating me at anything. Everything!" He yelled, grabbing clumps of his hair as his breathing became erratic. "I'm so fucking useless!" He continued, tears streaming down his face.

You stood there awkwardly, not quite knowing what to do. "Every. Single. Attempt. I. Make. It always fails. Always." He huffed voice breaking as he began to sob. "I wish those damndable fools would just drop dead!" He continued, shaking his head violently. He let out a frustrated scream, jumping at you as he tackled you in a hug.

He held you tightly as he sobbed, an absolute mess as he buried his face into your chest. "I'm good for nothing, just like mother said I was." He choked out, and you felt even worse for him than you did before. What kind of mother would say that to their child? You rubbed his back gently, trying to comfort the man. Soon his breathing slowed, and his sobs turned into small sniffles. He lifted his face away from you, whipping his tears with his hand as he tried to calm himself.

"And now here I am, crying like an infant on you." He growled, even more disgusted with himself. You cupped his face, having him look at you. "You're so much greater than you know Astor." You say, looking into his eyes with a loving smile. "You're so strong, to stand against such dangerous foes on the regular, you truly are the definition of strength." His face grew warm with color, and he couldn't help the smile that started growing on his face. "You... You really mean it?" He asked, golden eyes shining with a new light.

To hear such things gave him a greater high than anything, as he was starved of such praise for far too long. He couldn't contain himself at this point, and pushed his lips onto yours, kissing you deeply and passionately. You were shocked at first, but eventually melted into the kiss as well. He wouldn't want to admit it, but he had wanted to kiss you for such a long time.

After a little he pulled away, nuzzling his face into yours with a loving smile. You never understood how this man could go from sobbing to kissing you, but you didnt really mind it, it made life a bit more interesting. "I love you" He said breathlessly, holding you as close to him as he could. "Weren't you just cussing at me to go away?" You giggle, closing your eyes with a content smile. "I- Well... yes, I suppose I was... Im deeply sorry." He said sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck. "Well i love you too, you goof."