Drug of choice - ashtray

XXI

"Can I go help lexi with play?" I asked fez
"Isn't the production like, really soon though"he asked
"A lot can be done in a few days and I have some ideas I think she'll want to hear"I said maliciously
"Nah I can't let you do that, you already know"he said
"Can't let me what? Contribute my ideas to a play"I asked
"Look at me right now and tell me you've gots good intentions"he said
I looked at him and smiled. Then again slightly more awkwardly. Then I was cringing. Then I sighed
"Fez I'll be with Lexi! Please?!" I said
He chuckled at first then he realised I was serious and wasn't giving in.
"No!I already told you .If I say yea right now and ash finds out, he will literally kill me, sorry playa I can't let you go"he said
There was a long silence until fez said.
"So uhh, have you spoke to lexi at all"
"Yea I have?"I said suspiciously
"About what" he asked trying to sound casual
"The play mainly...fez what are you trying to ask"I said knowingly
"I don't know it might be stupid"he said dismissively
"Fez...If  your trying to find out if she likes you, she does. She doesn't even need to tell me. I can see it" I said
"You think...she been real busy with the play I didn't want to spring anything on her you know?" He said
"After the play...your gonna tell Lexi everything. You deserve each other fez, after the play, everything's going to be ok. I'm not planning anything massive. Just a tiny fuck you to some people. Someone who fucked us all over. It's petty, childish even. I promise you, me you and ash can carry on living together doing what we always do, I will have finally broken Nate jacobs. You and Lexi can be together and it'll be perfect and we can all just fucking enjoy our lives because we're kids..." I said
"I don't know about that but...I really hope your right"he said
"I can feel it. After the play everything's going to change"I said squeezing his arm
"I know I scare you, or you get scared for me... I don't know, but I'd never do anything to hurt you, your my family. but the way I feel towards you isn't the same as the way I feel towards ash" I said
"Your good for each other. Ash is...protective and abbi that's exactly the typa shit you need in yo life, you know what I'm saying.Ashtray can be like really overbearing and possessive and shit , it's how he shows his loyalty towards you, by taking care of you.I know it feels like he's just being a dick right now. I promise you he just cares. And he's worried"fez said
"Fez I know, it's hard because we're the same ag, we've both been through a lot,we both have similar minds, but the one difference is I trust him to do whatever he wants, he doesn't trust me at all"I said
"I think he trusts you, he just can't trust himself to keep you in his life"fez said
I sat thoughtfully. I felt bad, I didn't want to worry fez or ash.
"Why don't you ask Lexi to come over here"fez said feeling bad
"Can I!?"I asked
"Of course kid"he said ruffling my hair

Literally writing the next chapter rn. Ok ok everyone is saying they're gonna kill ash? I have really weird feeling it's not gonna be fez or ash who dies I think somethings gonna happen to faye. I quite literally can't wait for episode 8 it's killing me. Also the foreshadowing in the chapterrr. Imagine how sad this chapter would be if fez was actually gonna die. Anyway I'm so sorry for the wait