Camilo Angst (Cos there isn't enough out there)

I can't survive without you.

⚠️SH, suicidal thoughts⚠️
I think that is all but if you spot anything else, just tell me.

Italics - voices

Third Person POV

Ever since Dolores moved away, Camilo got more and more lonely. It was like he lost a part of himself. Sure he was close to the rest of his Familia but it wasn't the same, no one could make him laugh like his sister could, no one could make him smile like his sister could, no one could make him feel better like his sister could. No one could make him want to live enough to stay around like his sister could.

Camilo's POV

I walked around the village doing my chores with a fake smile, just like always, I felt so empty now that Dolores was spending more time with Mariano. Sure she still stayed at the house, but she might as well not be, I never get to see her, ever. It had been about 3 months without seeing her and life has been hell. That's why I started cutting, I started cutting a couple of weeks ago and it gave me the relief that talking to Dolores did. I only ever felt comfortable talking to Dolores, I love the rest of my Familia very much, but they just didn't get me like mi hermana (my sister) does.

I walked home that night, after a long day of chores, I slumped back into the house. God, I wanted to talk to Dolores so badly, oh wait, yeah I can't do that. I stomped up into my room, my thoughts were racing,
'Just do it no one will care'
'The only reason Dolores stopped hanging out with you is because you are insufferable'
'Do it!'
'You don't deserve to live'
'Just die'

That's when I realised the crimson red liquid pouring out of my arm, god I did it again and I didn't even realise I was doing it, I really am stupid, aren't I?
'Yeah you are'
Not you again
'You will only be able to get rid of me when you get rid of yourself'
Ugh, I walked downstairs after bandaging my arms up, I saw my whole familia at the table, they really don't care about me, do they? They couldn't even be bothered to shout at me to come down to eat. At least I know how they really feel about me.

I sneaked into the kitchen, grabbing one of Tia Julietta's arepas, can't risk me bleeding through my shirt can I? I went and sat down at the table.

Time skip brought to you by ✨my anxiety✨

After dinner I got up and quickly went to Dolores,
"Hey Dolore-"

"Sorry Cami, can it wait? Mariano wanted to show me something."

"Oh yeah, sure, I'll just be up in my room"

I ran up to my room holding back my tears, my head was throbbing from the voices.

'See she doesn't even want to talk to you'
'You're useless'
'Die, die, die'
'Just kill yourself'
'Good for nothing piece of shit'
'Waste of space'
'Even your familia hates you'

I hear someone barge into my room, I look up and see a yellow dress and a red bow tied around very curly brown hair. Dolores. I cried shaking. I managed to squeeze out one sentence without bursting.

"Make them stop. Please"

I ran up to her, relief flooding through me but as I ran up she just stared pointing and laughing at me.

"You actually thought I cared about you, honestly you are even more pathetic than I thought, no one likes you and we all think you are a massive burden on our perfect family."

Almost as soon as she had appeared she had disappeared, into thin air, nothing left behind a part from her words, they stung like hell.

What was worse is that they were true, I was a burden and I might as well die.

"Die"
"Die"
"Die"

I kept muttering to myself, I didn't't care if Dolores heard she probably agreed with them.

"Hermano!" I heard someone shout from downstairs, I quickly wiped away my tears and slowly walked out of my room.

"Hermano, why were you saying, die." Of course, Dolores.

"I don't deserve to love, I'm just a burden to this family and you all hate me." I could see tears making their way down Dolores' cheeks and I felt really bad, well done Camilo, you made Dolores cry, well done.

"Oh, mi amor, I'm so sorry you feel like that, it's not true, all of our Familia love you so much and I'm sorry that I've been spending so much time with Mariano and hardly any with you, you are my hermano and I love you so much. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me."

"Really?" I mumbled

"Really."

With that I snuggled up to Dolores and we both cried, I loved my familia so much and it hurt thinking that they didn't feel the same way but with Dolores with me, I feel like I could take on the world.

"Te amo mucho Dolores, eres la mejor hermana mayor que alguien"

Word Count: 885

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