(TW mentions of self harm)
A few weeks later~
Luca POV
The past few weeks have actually been really good. Papa, officially stepped down 2 weeks ago. He gave the boys a week to settle in and get the hang of this before he announced his retirement.
I have to say, the boys aren't nearly as bad as I thought they were going to be.
Although they teased me a bit in the beginning, it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it was going to be.
We were actually starting to become more like brothers. Don't get me wrong I still find them incredibly attractive, but I know nothing like that can ever happen. They need a Donna and I need to focus on my missions.
Speaking of which, I'm currently heading to the infirmary because some jackass thought it was a good idea to fire at me when I had already locked on to one target.
Meaning I had blocked everything off from around me so I didn't see the asshole set up on the roof across from where I was. Luckily, I saw it in time to dodge it hitting a main artery, but not enough time to dodge it completely.
Blade's gonna give an earful, the one time I chose to go without him and this is what happens.
"Hey Reg," I greet as I stroll into his office
"What'd you do this time?" He asks feigning annoyance
"Just a graze, that's it." I say as I pull up the side of my shirt, revealing the nasty torn flesh right on the side of my ribs.
"Boy, I swear I'm gonna start charging you by the stitch if this continues." He says with an exasperated sigh as he gets to work on cleaning it.
"Did you at least get him back?"
I scoff.
"Of course! who do you think I am?"
"You tell me, Mr. head assassin."
"Eh-!" I go to snap back but am cut off by the door slamming open and my 'brothers' storming in.
Ally (The nickname I've come up with for Allesandro) steps forward with a very noticeable scowl plastered on his face.
"What happened?" Shivers go down my spine at the growls he let out.
"Just a graze, I'll be fine." I do my best to steady my voice so I don't stutter.
I've only known them a couple weeks, but i've never seen them this angry.
Marco goes to ask another question but got cut off by Reggie asking me if I want pain relief.
"No, I'm good I can handle it." I say without thinking.
"That's not what I'm worried about. I know you can handle it I just don't want you to get addicted again." Reggie responds giving me a 'you know what I mean look'
I had a slip up a few years ago, I was in a really dark place. I had just run into my sperm donor plus I was also testing for the head of knife combat, when I got called out for a mission. Long story short I got shot in my right shoulder, Reggie fixed me up as soon as I got back but there was just something about the pain that I craved.
I don't know if it was the adrenaline rush or seeing my blood drip down my arm, that made me crave it, but I ended up cutting again. I just needed some source of relief.
It didn't last very long though, I passed out in mamas arms from blood loss. When I woke up the made me tell them what was going on.
After that I started seeing a therapist who really help me through of bunch of my shit. I found it felt better to talk about it rather than just bottling it up and never speaking about it just drowning in self hate. I haven't cut in 5 years and I intend to keep that streak going.
"What do you mean, what happened?" Matteo asks, when he noticed I went quiet.
"Noth-ouch!" I yell as I turn around to see Reggie holding an empty syringe.
"Hey! You said you weren't going to do that again." I can't help but pout at reg being unfair. After last time Reggie usually gives me a sedative when I get hurt so I sleep through the pain. But there was one time where I had a really bad cut, Reggie asked if I want pain relief and I said no. He ended up giving it to me anyway just when I wasn't looking.
"No, I said I wouldn't do it again as long as you listened to your body. You obviously weren't going to so just thought I'd take care of it my self." He says in a matter of fact-ly tone
I go to respond with something snarky, but I'm hit with a major wave of fatigue. Before long, I find myself struggling to stay awake, until suddenly I just give in and let the void swallow me.
To be continued~
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A/n
I just feel the need to put this out there
Reggie wasn't drugging Luca against his will he was just trying to look out for him he didn't have a secret agenda or anythingAnywhos thank you for reading and voting on the last chapter❤️
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