No! Don't dare think about those moments, those clips in history. You are only going to further lower yourself into the well. Don't think about those obtrusive passing fragments of memories, about that which you were subjected to, that dominate force, unable to maintain control of your movements, and blocking your rationality. Being in the moments similar to that one, cause you to realize how horrible of a person you are. How you were to it. You aren't meant for that. Now you dislike that idea. Itself is positive, but it is the result that affected you. That changed you. You can love but shouldn't try to indulge in it, you will only hurt the other person. And you are against hurting people, they don't deserve it. Another shouldn't have to feel your torture, the unruly and unkind, kind, that only magnifies with passing time should the connection persists. Keep at a considerable distance. Even if deep down you wish you could, if only you could. Its better to think it. Be safe. Keep to yourself.
(You cried quietly while thinking and writing this)
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Things I could tell you
Poetryincoherent, inconsistent ramblings about a person trying to reach a consensus with itself
