Again - Larry Fanfiction

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Hi everyone, this is probably the episode everyone was waiting for.

Or is it?

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Louis froze. They both wanted to come out for years and always talked about that, dreamed about that. And actually this wasn't the first time Harry says he wants to come out but this time, Louis felt this was soon.

"As a couple?" he asked dumbly and Harry frowned.

"Of course as a couple." he said and Louis stayed silent for some time again. But it was seenable to see Harry's excitement was going down and down. The enthusiasm on his face disappeared. "What?" he asked. "Don't you want to?"

"No, Harry. Of course i do." Louis said and tried to cover up the feelings he just showed. "But how? We are talking this non-stop for years and how can we be out now?" he asked.

"I have a plan, Lou." he said. "This time i have a plan. But i need to make sure that you are ready too." he asked and Louis bit his lip.

This was all of a sudden and unexpected. They have planned this but Louis never thought this would be real. He never thought what happens if this would be real. It was so overwhelming for Louis now, he felt like he couldn't breathe in a proper way. It was like there was hands around all over his neck and grabbing, tightening it. 

He couldn't even used to being a father at the public eye and by himself, he didn't know if this was the right time for coming out.

"You don't want this, do you?" Harry asked and no, he wasn't angry. But it was worse, he was disappointed in Louis. Louis could understand from his eyes and that implicit smile.

"Harry it's just... so much going on right now." Louis said and he couldn't look at him in the eye. He knew how much he wanted this for years and it's not like he didn't, but right now wasn't the right time.

"Okay then..." Harry said and stood up, left out a laugh that wasn't caused by a joy and left the room.

He knew he wasn't coming to bed tonight, he never would. This was Harry, he would hold grudge even for a short time of amount but he would and probably it was best for them to not communicate for a few hours because he probably would say something that damage their relationship.

Louis knew coming out has no right anymore, it has been since eleven years. Maybe he was making a mistake by being a coward right now but if they would say that they are in a relationship in a soon time; it just wouldn't be right for Louis. 

Also it meant that they are damaging the other lad's career's too, it meant they are loosing their songs, lyrics and lots of money. 

So within two hours, Louis tried to listen what they were talking at the downstairs but he couldn't and he cursed a lot to not having a cigarette right now. He understood this wasn't going like this and took one of his sleeping pills that haven't used in months and got under the blanket.

Louis slept a lot and uninterrupted that night so he never knew if Harry came to bed or not but it really wasn't hard to guess.

His phone's clock was showing eleven at morning and woke up with a strong head ache, god know's why. He got up and changed his clothes, drunk the water that standing on his commode.

There were some noice at downstairs, probably the breakfast was getting ready. So he went to look up and heard Liam's and Harry's talking.

"I think he is not wrong H. He just trying to become a father and it's really not easy." Liam said Harry laughed huffly.

"Please Liam, it is never the right time for Louis. Either wants to getting used to being a dad or trying to find his sexuality." Harry said and Louis raised his eyebrows from behind the door.