Again - Larry Fanfiction

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Louis didn't regretted anything. But the possibility of Harry might have been regretted and blame Louis, saw that night as taking advantages would be the end of his life, because he would never do something like that to Harry. He also wasn't proud of giving a little tiny drop of hope to Harry but there was no way that he could resist him that night.

He knew something would happen the second he has seen Harry's name on his phone in the middle of the night. It never was good new when they were seperated and Harry calling him at night. He cared about Harry, he worried about him and couldn't help himself to take care of him. He didn't know any better than this.

He knew their private relationship was bearing of their own benefits sometimes. Like Harry would die for an attention and would do anything for this while Louis was salving his conscience with taking care of Harry. They were selfish and this was the first solid reason for their toxic relationship.

Louis didn't know how a proper relationship would last or have Harry and him have a proper relationship ever. He didn't started dating so late, but the time he was getting how was loving someone and how this date stuff was going; he found Harry all to himself. He got laid here and there of course, tried to meet another people but it was really odd to him; sharing a bed sexually with a person other than Harry. He could almost say that this was wrong but no, not technically.

So him, laying with someone other than Harry wasn't comfortable right now. He was in a fresh-reserved hotel room that was pretty basic and small relatively and there was a man next to him sleeping really deeply that he found yesterday after getting drunk in the club he went lonely. He didn't remembered how many drinks he drank but it wasn't as much as to forget what happened or he didn't blacked out.

He felt too old for this, sneaking up from a hotel room quietly. But there he was, going to hotel's parking lot to find his car while trying to decide if he should mention this to Harry or not.

It wasn't cheating. Technically.

They weren't on a break, they broke up for good and Louis decided to do the for good part. Nevertheless he was still feeling all the guilt leaking through his veins. Maybe it was too soon to find some one night stand but who would decide the time lapse? When they broke up on the hiatus, after years it was still early to Louis.

Liam used to be with him when he had problems about anything; life, family, friends, Harry and more. But now, he was busy. Just like Zayn and Niall. Or maybe he didn't wanted to be a burden of his friend's shoulders with his teenagers problems. And usually, one night stands wouldn't be a problem at all. 

He knew if Harry knew about this, he would be heartbroken for no reason at all. Well, Louis would be heartbroken too. But Harry also knew that if he wanted Louis by his side, Louis would be there, right? Did Louis made it clear enough to him? He was still just a call away, like they talked they broke up, they were still best-friends.

Well, Louis wasn't sure if he only wanted to be best-friends. To Louis, Harry meant love. Sometimes mental breakdowns but mostly. Was he Louis' that ex-boyfriend that he will be calling every time he felt bad or drunk? Did he had to be drunk to call Harry? 

Growing-up wasn't good for him. He missed behaving like a teenager. Just to be with Harry but now, things had changed and sometimes Louis didn't even know how to be a grown-up.

But it also meant going home to be lonely sometimes. And dealing with it. 

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The documentary's first shooting wasn't going really great. As Simon's willings, it started earlier than tour because they supposedly shouldn't work too much at tour and he didn't wanted to tire them all. Bullshit.