My Favorite Sin (Republished)

Chapter 10

~ L O R E N Z O ~

I'm so fucking stupid.

She takes the glass of wine I set earlier and takes a large sip before looking at me blankly.

"You made that clear ever since you've come back. With your stupid 'threats' to fuck my throat and fingering me in my own apartment" she says and I grip onto the fork and clench my jaw.

The image of me fingering her against her wall suddenly pops into my head and I feel my cock twitch.

She's so fucking infuriating, I hate it.

No I don't. I fucking love how she drives me insane, how she teases me then acts innocent, how she purposely pisses me off.

I love it, I love every second because it's different.

"Don't act like you didn't enjoy every second of it amore" I begin, relaxing my jaw and fists. "I know you want me to fuck your attitude out of you just as much as I want to" I finish with a smirk but she looks unfazed?

"So you just want to fuck me?" she raises a brow, looking suspicious.

I slowly nod my head while I continue to eat waiting for her response.

"What changed over the last 3 years because last time I basically handed myself on a silver platter and you didn't want me." She asks bitterly while shoving a piece of food into her mouth mouth, waiting for my explanation.

How do explain how I wanted to fuck her from the second I meet her? How do I tell her that when she was only 15 I imagined how she would feel around my dick?

How my 19 year old ass jerked off to that thought of me fucking her tiny body.

I hated myself for it. Not only was she way too young at the time but I was her friend, I felt as if I was exploiting her so I made sure I'd never physically or verbally take any actions.

The memory of the day she kissed me for the first time is burned into my mind.

I, of course had to control myself because if I had fucked her that day, I would have ruined her and myself.

I couldn't get her off my mind after so I started avoiding her then I got the news about my fathers death and everything just got too complicated.

"You." I state and she furrows her brows at my vague statement.

I clear my throat and explain "I've always wanted to fuck you but you don't think it's a little inappropriate for a 19 year old to fuck a 16 year old not to mention illegal?"

She looks like she's going to kill my ass.

"You fucked multiple 16 and 17 year olds girls when you were 19 Lorenzo." She deadpans.

"And don't act like you give a shit about the law. Just be honest, Why didn't you want to fuck me back then?" She asks again.

I suck in a breath "It's complicated Leila and it doesn't matter, what I'm offering now is that we can have casual mind blowing sex" I say but I can see her hesitation.

"Are you a virgin?" I ask and she laughs.

"No, I lost my virginity when I was 16" she answers.

16? The year I left... Who the hell did she fuck?

"Then what's stopping you from agreeing"

"No strings attached just sex?" she questions and I nod.

"You haven't really convinced me, about this... 'proposal'" she says while dipping her middle finger into the mashed potatoes and bringing it up to her mouth, never breaking eye contact.