I'd always loved him. I always will. But sometimes you can't have everything you want.
Especially when he's not yours to claim.
I would never risk my sanity,my friendships, my heart, my mind, my everything just so I could mess around. At the same time, the feelings I had weren't just a crush or sexual desire, it was love.
I thought I could never experience that, so I moved on.
At least I thought I moved on.
But it's so hard. I want it so bad but I can't have the forbidden fruit. Even a little taste can be deadly. In the end, I'm just too scared and I like the safeness. I love being in a bubble where you aren't free but aren't exposed. Guarded, shielded, secure and out of harm's way.
Still, I seek closure and comfort from the wrong places. Guess I'm just lost. When someone ruins you and breaks your will, you would do anything to make them feel the way you felt. Right?
Guilt still eats me up and I'm just grateful that I dare to work past hardships life throws at me.
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Denied Love
RomanceWhen Aaliyah falls in love with her best friend's brother, she decides to ignore her feelings for the better of her friendship. But how long can she last before she gets tempted to act on those bottled feelings? Maybe a few problems and betrayals on...
