Impossible Love.

Chapter 5

I applied lipstick as my final touch up. I was going on a date today , yes I said date, I know I had said that nothing romantic but I wanted to try well not really I just wanted to run away from a feeling I was feeling for certain someone. I knew I liked him the way my hear used to beat fast whenever Ryan mentioned his name during our conversation or he used to tag along with us when we went for coffee or just meeting for lunch, the way I felt absolutely safe in his arms that day when we fell. I knew I liked him more than I could admit. Ryan knew this too , in any many words he tried to tell me that he knows and he has been trying to get me into dating again but I have refused.

So yesterday when that man who has a shop next to mine came and asked me out for a date I said yes because I wanted to distract myself from Ian for two reasons one that I like him and I don't want to involve myself in anything serious which will only lead to heartbreak and two I don't know whether he likes me back or no.

So dressing up very casually, my black pair of jeans, a rust colour off shoulder top and my chelsea boots. We are just going for coffee nothing too fancy.

Me: hey I am on my way to the cafe.

Yes I didn't ask him to pick me up because he stays on the other side from where I stay so the cafe we decided was in the middle convenient for the both of us.

Jeff: okay me too, I will reach in 10 see you.

I reach the cafe and see Jeff has already reached and sitting at the table. Hey waves at me and I smile in response. my phone vibrates.

Ryan: where are you?

Me: at cafe D

Ryan: why and with ??

Me: with a guy.

Ryan: I want to know why you're with him.

Me: Ry stop texting me I am out on a date.

I kept my phone in the pocket and didn't remove even though it vibrated and i knew it was Ryan.

"Sorry about that, my best friend wanted to know my plans for the weekend." I apologised to Jeff.

"No problem" he smiled and he had those cute dimples. He had blue eyes and sandy brown hair. He was very cute. "What would you like to order?" He asked me.

"Just hazel nut cappuccino and a slice of strawberry cheesecake." He smiles and goes and orders for the both of us. When he comes back I ask him "how much do I pay you" because it's the polite thing to do even though he has asked out i still want to pay for what I ordered.

"Nothing, you being here is payment enough. You finally saw me as more than your neighbour and for years I've been trying to get your attention" Jeff confesses.

"Is it?? I am sorry I've been so caught up with work that I didn't notice." I reply to Jeff knowing it's not gonna make a difference.

"It's okay I get it I am just glad you agreed" he was smiling and I couldn't help but smile back at him but my smile immediately dropped when I saw who walked in. "Hey is everything okay" Jeff asks me , he doesn't know what I am looking at who rather who am I looking at.

"Why are you here." Ian asks me like he is my dad. I look at Ryan who is standing behind Ian looking apologetic and he can't even meet my eye because he feels guilty I think.

"Why are you here?" I counter back.

"Don't answer my question with another question" he looks mad like he wants to punch something or someone. Jeff poor thing is confused as to what is happening and he looks at me asking for answers which I don't have it myself.

"Bro we should leave, let's not create a scene." Ryan tries to calm Ian and when I look around everyone is looking at us. Ian turns to look at Ryan he can't believe Ryan would try to talk him out of it.

" What do you even see in him." Ian asks angrily.

"None of your concern, mind your own bloody business." I answer Ian with the same amount of anger. I look at Jeff and smile " I am sorry for this."

"I think you should leave" Ian tells Jeff with so much venom.

"Excuse me , you're not the king of the world to ask someone to leave." I tell Ian

"No it's okay , I think your friend here is right, I should leave. I should've known better." His voice holds sadness so much sadness that I want to hug him and tell him how sorry I am for all of this. He vegans to leave but me being an impulsive women I pull Jeff towards me and kiss him even though he tries to wiggle out I hold him in place. I hear Ian gasp and Ryan saying "fuck" but I don't care no one tells me what to do and what not to.

I am roughly pulled away from Jeff and he looks torn and even hurt and then I realise that I just used him because I was angry at Ian and I wanted to prove that Ian doesn't have a hold in my life and now I feel pathetic. "Shit! I am so sorry. I didn't mean to kiss you like that. I am sorry I acted impulsive."

"It's okay, I get it. I am sorry to ask you out even though I knew you like him" Jeff nods his head towards Ian.

"No I don't" I say too quickly " I am sorry once again and I know it's too late to ask this but I hope we can remain friends. I will understand if you don't want to though" I look down at my shoes feeling guilty about this whole situation.

"Yes absolutely, I'll see you at the shop." He says then hesitates a bit kisses me on my cheek and leaves.

When I turn my head towards the two idiots. Ryan is holding Ian so he doesn't run after Jeff who just kissed my cheek.

"Now tell me why are you two here." I ask both of them

" Like you don't know , I am in fucking love with you and have been for a while now." Ian says like it's the most simple thing in the world. Ryan is just staring at us waiting for my reaction.

" Yeah right and I am Beyonce" I roll my eyes " we both know we are lying, now if you excuse me I am going to go home." As I try to walk past them. Ian takes my hand turns me towards him and holds me in the place "everyone is looking at us" I say with gritted teeth.

"I don't care, you have to listen to me." Iam says and I look at Ryan for help "don't even think about interfering , speak only if you're going to speak from my side" Ian tells Ryan.

"Look bro, I am all for team ZIan but I think we should go home and talk about this, Zara doesn't like to be center of attention." Ryan tries to reason which I think Ian gets it he loosens his grip on me but still holds my hand and I can't ignore the fact that my hand fits perfectly with his. Ian notices that too and smiles a genuine full blown smile.

"Okay but she drives with me in the car and you can get her car over to your house or mine." Ian says with finality.

"I will only go with you on a condition that you keep your mouth shut the entire drive and will not speak a word about this, deal?" I ask Ian, he hesitates before he answers

"Deal."

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