She Tried

PROLOGUE

It was late. She had no clue what time it was... She had no phone with her, no watch, nothing.. But she knew it was late by the dark sky. Very late

She opened the door lightly, praying it won't make a sound. All lights were turned off. She went inside and quietly closed the doors behind her.

Once she was inside her living room, she let out a deep breathe. She was safe. At last.. In her own home, no one could hurt her..

She locked the doors which she came in through and tip-toed upstairs to her small bedroom. She lay down on her single bed and stared at the ceiling. Tears started to form in her eyes.

Don't you dare cry, she told herself. But it was too late. The tears started falling down her cheeks.

She grabbed her favoruite emoji pillow with heart eyes and sobbed into it. This pillow had gone througha lot with her. So many tears it had taken.

A thought came into her head and she was suddenly terrified. W-what if she was pregnant? What would she tell her mother?

I can't tell them... She thought. What if they will think I'm lying?

Rape wasn't a lie or a joke. But knowing her alcoholic mother, she'd say that her daughter is making up lies to get her attention.

Violet never thought this would happen to her. She knew things like this happened in the world but she never expected this faith to come to her. She did not know how other girls delt with this type of situation, but all she wanted to do right now was to take a rope and hang herself.

This way she wouldn't have to deal with the pain.

But she didn't want to end her life just yet. She had made so many plans for her future... She wanted to travel the world, go to college, get a job as a fashion designer, get married, start a family....

She placed her hand on her belly. Maybe this wasn't the way she had wanted to start a family, but it wouldn't be fair to deprive this child of a chance of life. She wasn't sure if there was one inside of her.. But her mother always kept pregnancy tests in the bathroom. Violet's mother had lots of men coming in and out of her life, and she always checked incase she could rob the current guy from his money for a child.

Violet quietly got out of bed. She opened the door to her room and looked around. It was dark. And quiet. She walked quietly across the hallway to the bathroom. It was a small bathroom with just a shower, a sink with a mirror cabinet above it and a toilet, There wasn't even a window in it.

She opened her mother's mirror medicine cabinet which was above the sink. The light was turned off because she didn't want her mother to catch her so she had to muffle about. When she finally grabbed hold of a box, she went out of the bathroom and went close to the window at the end of the hallway.

She checked the label on the box in the night light.

Bingo.

She took on pregnancy test out of the box and went back into the bathroom. She put the box back into the medicine cabinet and closed the doors to the bathroom.

She knew how to use those things. She had seen her mother do it a few times. It was kind of embarrasing, but she had to check.

After she was done, she took the pregnancy test and went to her room. She placed it on her bedside table and layed down on her bed.

She took her phone out from under her pillow. She was so stupid. She should've take her phone with her when she was leaving the house. That's what she had it for. In case of an emergency.

She turned it on.

Once it was turned on, she quickly plugged it under the charger as it sent her a "low battery" warning.

She had to wait 10 minutes before she got a result. Meanwhile, she looked through her dad's facebook page.

He looked so happy with his family.

Her mother did not know that Violet had found her brith certificate under her mother's bed and had researched her father. She felt so sad when she found him on facebook and seen how happy he was with his other daughters. What was wrong with Violet that her father did not want her?

She felt tears pricking her eyes. Not again...

She checked the time. Fifteen minutes passed. How did the time pass so quick. She put her phone away and let it charge. She took the pregnancy tests from her bedside table.

It was positive. Holy Fuck... What was she going to do now? Telling her mother was not an option. She could get an abortion....

NO. She told herself. She didn't want to deprive the child of a chance to live. I will love it will all my heart and soul, she made a vow to herself. No matter what.