Is it really you? [Gay Story]

Eva. No.2

I was reading my text book till I felt as if someone was watching me. I don't know why?When I looked up, I saw a girl stand cause Mr Clarkson told her off for looking back. I think it was her who was looking at me, but why would she want to look back? She probably didn't even look at me, why look at someone: who sits at the back of the class, is the most shy person in the world and literally has no friends. I don't know what I'm thinking! Nobody wants to be around someone like me, I don't fit in I tried to once but it didn't work instead I got laughed at and cried in the girls bathroom. I also apparently ended up being 'the star of the show' according to the mean girls. They didn't like it and started beating me up behind the school buildings, since I'd like to sit there and listen to music BY MYSELF!!!
Just because I'm a loner, doesn't mean they should pick on me because I have no one to back me up. I ended up hiding in the bathrooms but they found me and decided to annoy me even more by throwing rubbish in my cubicle. I hated it and wondered why no one helped me. It's probably cause I'm that one kid who no one wants to talk to, but I wish someone would talk to me every day and I would have a laugh and joke with. Well, that's not happening any time soon. Those girls decided to give up on me after a hot guy got transferred into our class, I'm glad they did though, I mean. Who wouldn't?
I got back to reading the text book and answering the questions. I finished early, since I'm quite quick at these kinds of things. I close my book and look at the time, we've only got 10 minutes left I might as well hand in my books to Sir.
I got up and walked to Mr Clarkson, I feel nervous and avoid looking at anyone, everyone else is still writing.
"Oh, Eva your finished!"
I nod but keep looking down.
"I might as well mark your work", he looks at me with a smile but I just give him the books back. I feel to anxious. Right now I want to go and sit back down again!
"Mr Clark-
"Full marks, again".
He said that as if he's disappointed that I'm not doing bad, I feel kind of upset now he doesn't know me enough to congratulate me for getting top scores in the school. If I was Clara he'd probably give me a gold medal or a trophy for getting half marks on a test, cause she's popular. I turn around and start walking back to my table.
"Eva, I'm not done with you yet!"
Um... wait what! I turn around, as he gets up and starts to walk towards me.
Now I feel as if everyone's eyes are on me. I look around, only a little and saw Clara staring at me I feel my heart beat pumping and I can't speak. I look back at Sir and-
"Here you go kiddo"
I do a little squeal and look up. Mr Clarkson is giving me my paper back I got all panicky for no reason, it's all because of my stupid anxiety I haven't told anyone about. I take the paper and go back to my table. I cross my arms and hide my head in my arms, I peak a little out of my arms and see Mr Clarkson sitting back on his desk and typing on the computer. I see everyone else looking back at me and some carried on writing, but one person caught my eye and that was Clara I don't know why I'm looking at her but she's looking back at me and she looks so calm. Her eyes are a nice type of  brown, her hair is also brown and her face is so...so very. I got to stop looking my anxiety will come back!!!
Looking at Clara makes me feel calm and I want to talk to her. Maybe tomorrow I'll talk to her and get to know her, it's better to do so before I leave. It's a nice way to remember the place before I go.