𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐈𝐯𝐲 𝐓𝐨𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐨𝐟 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 | HP One Shots

Wrong time, maybe | Blackinnon

"Well well well."

"What do you want, Black?"

"Is that any way to talk to your boss, McKinnon?"

"Okay let's get some records straight. You're not my boss, no one is. I do my own. You just so happen to be the leader of a mission that I am working on but that does not give you the authority to act like I am your slave."

"Someone's testy."

"One jinx and you'll be out, Black. I wouldn't cross me if I were you."

"Oh your little threats have no affect on me what-so-over. And if I recall correctly, you were the one who told me and I quote 'What's life without a little risk?'"

"Yeah and I still stand by my statement but the risk that you are taking is not little. You might have forgotten what happened last year but I haven't and we both know how good I am at keeping grudges."

"And we both also know that you happen to have a soft spot for me."

"For you, sure, but not for cheaters."

"Come on, Marls, that was a mistake, an accident which I regret dearly. I can't stress that enough. I was already angry at my dick of a brother and then I saw you with that guy—"

"He was my friend, Sirius."

"He had his arm around your waist and he was looking at you like he would jump your bones at any moment!"

"He had his arm around me, SO WHAT? You hug Lils all the time, does that give me the right to shag a random guy into oblivion out of mere jealousy?!"

"I know, I- I know I was wrong but I was drunk! And I am not using that as an excuse for what I did but that's the truth! I was drunk out of my mind and that girl C-Candice? Or was it Caroline? I think it was Caroline, but, anyway, she was throwing herself at me and her hair looked just like you and- and I just- I thought she was you. I was thinking that I was with you the whole time and I was- not."

"..."

"That doesn't change things, Sirius."

"Why not?"

"Even if- even if it wasn't your fault, it hurt. It hurt so much and I don't think that I am capable of going through that kind of agony again."

"Marls. Just give me another chance, please. I promise I won't mess it up."

"I know, Sirius. I know you won't. But the truth of the situation remains the same. You had sex with another girl when you were in a relationship with me and that won't change."

"My mind wasn't in the right place, alright? And- I think I was still a bit immature at that time—"

"A bit? Do you think that I never reconsidered my choice of being your girlfriend? Because I did. Many times. Sirius, your reputation in school was not the best when it came to having relationships. You were the guy who strayed away from attachments and never wanted to settle down with one person. When you asked me to be your girlfriend, I won't lie and say that I didn't have second thoughts about it, because I did. But- but the look in your eyes when I said yes made all those doubts vanish in thin air. I thought that maybe I was the girl who had changed you for good. Who was lucky enough to be your first girlfriend. To be- to be someone who finally tamed the untameable Sirius Black."

"Marls—"

"But you had to go and prove me wrong, didn't you? I thought we had something special, Sirius. It was the wrong time, maybe."

"We did have something special. We still do, Marls. And I know the perspective that everyone had of me in Hogwarts, okay? I was a playboy and I know that but then- then you came into the picture and that changed everything. You made me feel things that I had never felt before. When I was with you, all my senses heightened and when you touched me, I felt something I can't even begin to explain. And I think beneath everything, I was a bit scared. You just meant too much to me, Marls. I lo—"

"Don't say it, Sirius. Don't."

"I loved you. I love you, Marls. I have spent this past year living in guilt because you don't deserve what happened to you. But I hadn't meant to do it and I don't know how to make it right. I thought that once we'll be out of Hogwarts, the hurt and pain would get better but it didn't. And the love didn't decrease or fade or lessen at all—"

"I love you too, Sirius! I love you and I hate myself for that. You broke me. First, you broke the walls that I had built around myself and you- you seeped into me. It was like I wasn't just me anymore. Everything around me felt like it was you. And then when I saw you with her, it felt like a part of me had left my body and that part took all my happiness, joy, feelings, EVERYTHING! I love you, Sirius but I don't think I can trust you again. I trusted you once, I believed that you had changed and you wouldn't ever hurt me and even if it wasn't your fault, I was the one who got hurt. And I care about myself enough to not let you have that power again."

"Your heart should always be breakable, Sirius, but not by the same hands."

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I was too lazy to write the whole chapter and I just had this thing in my mind so um here it is. I hope you like it though I am not too fond if it.

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