Its been a week since they started to avoid me and now Here I am faking my smile and pretending to be fine in front of everyone, I've been lying to myself telling that its fine I can stand alone I'll be fine on my own.
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Uwian na half day lang kami ngayon since may meeting daw yung mga teachers and i'm so excited to leave the room but after lumabas ni ma'am, heira came to me i thought she's going to give me something but i was wrong.
"Ganyan na lang ba ang gagawin mo?" She asked i'm confused anong pinagsasabi nito
"What do you mean?" I asked
"Are you just going to be like that?" She asked again
"Ano bang pinagsasabi mo? You know what? i'm leaving"sabi ko at kinuha ko yung mga gamit ko i can feel their stares, i really hate getting attentions.
Papalabas na sana ako sa pintuan ng mapatigil ako nang magsalita sya.
"You were always like this you just cut people out of your life so easily like they didn't become part of your life" she said
They choose to avoid me and now they're asking me why am i being like this?
"Always? Do you really know me that much to say that I'm always like this?" I asked
"Paano kita naging kaibigan kung wala akong alam tungkol sayo"
"Your saying that just because we are friends and just because we are friends that means you already know that much about me?" I asked and laughed
"Sorry but actually you don't know anything about me, neither any of you so don't say that you know me" i added at naglakad na ako paalis i need to cool my head first so i went to a cafe *sigh* its better to be alone sometimes as i was drinking my coffee my phone vibrated kaya kinuha ko ito and i saw
20 messages?
Saan naman to nanggaling ohh~? Lahat galing kay heira but its keeps popping ang dami
'Are you just going to ignore us?'
'hey Aveline magreply ka naman'
'do you really hate us that much?'
'are you just going to keep staring at your phone?'
'Ayaw mo talagang magreply!?'
'tititigan mo na lang ba yan phone mo'
Huh? Wait napatingin ako sa paligid ko and i was shocked when i saw her Infront of me
"Bakit ka nandito?" agad kong tanong
"Isn't it obvious i like coffee so i came here to buy one" sabi nya
"What i mean is bakit ka nakatayo dyan nandoon yung inoorderan"i said and I point out the counter
"Nice try"she said but i just look at her
"If you are going to say something wag mo nang ituloy because i'm going to leave" sabi ko at tumayo ako
"Enjoy your coffee" i said at umalis leaving her alone.
Bago ako umuwi ay dumaan muna ako sa convinience store at bumili ng snacks and drinks.
*sigh* Another day has passed.
Even ailey avoided me everyone i think well its not like i'm bothered but its feels like i'm a loner.
But why? Did i do something wrong? I didn't even saw heira today maybe she was absent.
Break time
At dahil wala akong kasama i went to the rooftop at doon ako kumain and after i finished ay bumaba ako but then i saw ailey being bullied again. Do i have to turn a blind eye again. I was about to walk away but i stopped.
Am i going to be like this all day running away from the reality. Lumapit ako doon sa mga bully at pinigilan sila. They just look at me
"What? Get lost" sabi nung isa
"Tigilan nyo na yan" i said but they just laughed
"Ohhh trying to be a heroine" sabi nung isa at hinampas si ailey
"Anong gagawin mo magsusumbong ka?" Sabay hampas na naman kay ailey aakyat dugo ko sa mga to
"I said Tigilan nyo sya" sabi ko
"What if we don't?" sabi nung isa at nakangisi pa actually apat sila mga walang magawa sa buhay
"Gusto mo ikaw ipalit namin sa kanya?"
"You better not" i said
"Why? sino ka ba?" One of them asked tapos Lumapit sila akin
"Because you'll regret it later" i said at bago pa nila ako sugurin ay may dumating na teacher kaya nagtakbuhan sila nice timing.
Naglakad na ako paalis at bumalik sa room di ko na pinansin si ailey. But i didn't notice na nakasunod rin pala sya saakin at pagkaupo namin ay nagsalita sya
"Thanks"
"You don't have to ginawa ko lang kung ano yung dapat gawin"sabi ko at tumingin sa bintana its better to be like this.
One more reason why i don't want to stay to anyone because I don't want to get closer to anyone.
To be continued....
BINABASA MO ANG
The Pretender
Teen FictionIts better to be rejected for who I am than be accepted by pretending to be someone I am not. Pretending to be fine, even though you are not is much more difficult than pretending to be someone else.
