I'm beginning to think I'm naive or stupid
the problem is I don't change in big shapes or colours
I change slowly
People around me change fast
And you did
I don't know if it was because we stopped asking each other how our days were or if it was the lack of meaning in our conversations that did it
But somewhere along the line I turned around and you weren't there behind me
I think I panicked
and started to run
I could see you in the distance and I collected the flowers on the path like
Memories of us hoping you would want to see them when I found you
but you were faster then I expected
At some point you wanted new flowers
Now I'm walking and walking
With no one behind me
Down the path i thought I knew but I keep getting lost and hoping I'll bump into you
I never do
It's cold and the ground is a bottomless pit
I keep telling myself to not look down
Don't look down, keep walking
But when I trip how am I supposed to not look at my feet?
And now I'm looking down
And now I'm falling into this pit
But it's not as scary as I thought it would be
Because I've been here before
And I'm okay with the darkness
Because the darkness is peaceful
And constant
It doesn't confuse me
It doesn't change
It's the only thing in my life that's stayed loyal
And the only thing I can always depend on
It wont run away from me like you did
And I couldn't run away if I tried
