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INSECURITIES; ashtray

TW: BODY SHAMING AND SELF HARM PLEASE PLEAZE SKIP IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THESE TOPICS

by the way all bodies are perfect and beautiful if you ever are self conscious about your body or anything just remember you are beautiful and if you need help with ANYTHING at all message someone that you know will help you

<3

Y/N's POV

"Y/N YOU need to stop eating so damn much." cassie said watching me eat my food.

"but i barely ate anything?" i said.

"you need to eat less. you're getting fat." cassie said, the truth was i was skinny very skinny. and i wanted to eat more to gain weight. but apparently i'm getting fat, i guess i'll stop eating again:/

i stood up from the table and ran into my room and immediately started bawling my eyes out.

i took off my shirt and looked in the mirror.

god i am getting fat. i thought to myself playing with my skin.

no wonder no one wants me as a friend.

i hate myself.

why am i so ugly?

"fuck.." i cried out as i cut myself with my razor on my stomach.

"y/n.. what the fuck are you doing?!" ashtray yelled at me climbing through my window.

ASHTRAYS POV

i decided to go to y/n's house because tbh i missed her. she hasn't been coming by as much as she used too and fez was with lexi.

since y/n's room is on the second floor it was gonna be a bit harder to climb through her window but i managed anyways.

the windows always unlocked so i climbed through it but when i did i seen y/n cut herself. "y/n.. what the fuck are you doing?!" i yelled at her.

i ran to her and held her as she dropped in my arms.

"i-im sorry ash.. i-im too ugly. i hate myself." y/n chocked out.

"no y/n you are not ugly you are fucking beautiful. and i love you for it. whoever the fuck says your not beautiful can go to hell their just jealous they don't look like you." i said with tears in my eyes i rarely ever fucking cry but after seeing y/n do this man i was traumatized.

all she could do was cry in my arms.

"come on let's get you cleaned up.." i said helping her to the bathroom and sat her on the counter looking for things to clean her cut.

once i looked at it i seen it was pretty deep. "this is a pretty deep cut, does it hurt?" all y/n did was shake her head.

i grabbed some hydrogen peroxide and applied it to her cut and she inhaled a sharp breath. once i was finished cleaning the cut i grabbed a bandage and bandaged it up.

"are you okay now? do you want me to stay?" i asked her helping her off the counter and grabbing a shirt she could put on.

"yes i'm okay and please stay if you don't mind." she whispered and crawled into bed after putting on the shirt, i crawled in next to her and wrapped my arm around her and kissed her forehead.

"as long as i'm here no one can hurt you.." i whispered in her ear drifting off to sleep.

ash is so cute