Niall Horan Imagines

Dear Jessica

I wrote this short story for my beautiful best friend. I love ya Jess. And I hope you had a nice birthday with me.

BTW this is a Harry thing so just telling you cuz she's a Harry girl.

Jessica's POV

I wipe my tears as I reread the words that either kept the last of us or tore both of us apart piece by piece until there was nothing left. I hope by now he already fixed himself up and met someone more charismatic and full of life than I would ever be.

There were times I knew that this only happened for the better of both of us and I should be okay yet there are more times where I find myself thinking why he let go and why I let him let go. Tears prick my eyes again as I trace the words on the letter carefully, trying not to smudge any of them. They probably won't. Ink dries up in minutes by it has been years since his pen touched this piece of paper.

His cursive writing looks perfect on the crumpled piece.

Dear Jessica,

I hope that this doesn't tear you apart as much as it did to me. Maybe one day you'll look back at this piece of paper and wonder where you got it from and maybe you would just throw out this piece of crap. Or maybe, just maybe, you'll keep it for years and years and won't let go thinking this is the last memory you will ever have of us. Maybe you'll laugh at it and shove it at the back of your dressers or those bags you carry around.

Anyway, I don't care how you think of this but as long as you read it,I'm fine. My first problem or maybe concern is that we might be one and only for each other which makes us upset is we see maybe a human being near the other. We freak out and get mad. We've been fighting, Jessica. We fought too much and probably will fight even more.

We never agree. We don't seem to be the same my dear. I love you with all my heart. I love you with everything I have and of course it hurts me to do this. But I need to start letting go before we get too attached. Remember me always. We were together for two years. Yes that's a lot. I wanted more. I wish you wanted more, I hope you do. Still. I need to be alone, I can't stay dedicated. I've never been dedicated and won't be. I can't help it darling. I can't bear to see others hurt and the more I commit, the more I get out of deals. The more I get out of deals, the more people I hurt.

I can't help but do this. You probably know where I'm heading. I don't want to say it. So I guess...

In the end, I love you. I love you with everything in me

I scream and throw the paper onto the floor. Tears fill my eyes and I sob into my hands. No no no.I get up and put on my boots. I don't give a damn how I look. Running outside into the cold weather, I run all the way to a small vintage book corner. I won't decline our commitment. That isn't me. Its him. He gets out of deals, I don't, I made a vow and I'll keep it. This is my oath.

The book shop.Our book shop. He brought me here all the time. My tears dried up and now I'm looking at everything he touched, I think about how he made me feel, how he got me high. I can't stop thinking about it, I just can't, the freezing weather makes it worse.

Now I look properly and a meter or two in front of me, I see him... Because today was our supposedly fifth anniversary. And today, I knew he would be here. Because of each vow we made, one of them was of course, that we would come here each anniversary. And for the last two years, he didn't show up, he never came. And today, he decided he would come. I came every year, hoping, pleading, praying,wishing he would come here and today he chose to come.

Because I know he still loves me.

I run to him my hands immediately touching him. I know he's real, his shocked expression shows that he didn't think I would come.

Of course he didn't.

My hands go up into his curls and I kiss him, kiss him with all I have left, because now I know everything I wanted came true,

He loved me and I loved him.

And we would get through everything together, no matter what happens.
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Jesy, I hoped you liked it. I cried a lot during this chapter and I was in a sappy mood. I love you Jess.

To Jesy.

I love you❤❤

-Roxy