Trapped feelings

Chapter 1.

"I love you mommy!" we all laughed as we heard me say through the video. We were going throught our old family photos on our old laptop. "LOOK AT YOU!!" I yelled as I pointed my finger at Denzell who was naked walking around the house. We all enjoyed these kind of moments together, just laughing and arguing on who looked dumber or cuter. "NO DON'T LOOK!" He said, quickly speeding up the video to a 'not naked' part.

We would do this for hours, just looking through old photos or videos, or just simply talking to eachother about anything. The only thing we couldn't wrap our head around was school, since mom really wanted all the best for us, but was kinda overreacting when it came to grades. But along all of that strictness, she was a fair and smart woman who loved her family

I live in a pretty wealthy family with my parents and older brother Denzell. He just moved away for college. We live in a neighborhood in Boston. I kinda missed him since he was the only one i could really talk too since he was the closest to my age. I go to a high school that's quite close to my house so I always walked.

My mom is a very strict woman and always expects perfection out of everything including my grades. I have always been a good student, almost all straight A-s. But it was never good enough for her and she told me almost every day how bad of a daughter I was and that I should look up to my brother and how good of a student he was.

He went to a big time college to becoming a doctor or at least some medicine shit. I never wanted to be something like that beacuse it didn't interest me, but she forced me to go the same path my brother did. And I hate it. Everything about that. Denzell was also never interested in medicine, because he has always wanted to be a softwear developer. He apsolutely loved computers and everything to do with them. But mom never took in his idea of becomg something he wanted. So it was her way, as always.

My father was always very suportive of Denzell. He showed Denzell how to operate with technology and loved every second about it. They would be in Denzell's room for hours at a time just working on computers that my dad had in storage. And i was always alowed into the room to see what they were doing.

But one time, mom came in and saw dad working with Denzell on the computer and that was the last straw for her. She always told dad to keep computers as far away from their son as possible, but he never listened. Whenever dad was free from work, he would always spend time with Denzell. She started yelling at them. She was known for having severe temper tantrums when something was wrong, often screaming at the littlest things. Dad tried to calm her down but she refused and started kicking the tools and computer parts that were on the room floor. They were flying everywhere. My dad grabed her and lead her out off the room and down stairs with her still screaming at him. The house suddelny went quiet and i heard my dad talking to my mom who was sobbing, on the porch on the side of the house since my window was right above it.

I stood up from my bed and went to check on my brother. I found him sitting on the floor with his head in his arms. He wasn't crying, but he was sad, horrified by what just happened. I sat next to him on the floor and started teling him that it was going to be okay. I wasn't so sure about that tho. I didn't know what else to do. I was so sorry about him beacuse i knew how much he liked doing this.

He calmed down and looked at me with puffy eyes, „It's okay Lynn, im fine, just, go to your room and i'll meet you there. I just need to clean some stuff up." He said and looked around the room. „oh...okay. Let me know if you need some help." I smiled and looked at his perfect blue eyes, „Of course i will." He smiled back and stood up. I stood up after him and walked to my room and closed the door.

I went back to the window and heard my mom and dad talking about Denzell, „Look Damon, it's the best for him. I don't want him to grow up poor. I want him to be sucessful, like you." A longer pause interupted. „But isn't the main thing for him to be happy? I mean, if he doesn't like the path that he took, he will never succed. He will just suffer, nothing els-", he didn't even get to finish his sentence, „Look, he WILL succed and i'll make sure he does." She said and angrily stoof up from her chair, making it screech on the wooden porch and walked into the house, dad following close behind her.

As they walked into the house, dad went straight to Denzell who was cleaning the mess and started helping him.

That was the moment my dad accepted the fact that my mother was right. But i didn't, and neither did Denzell. He was crushed by the fact that he was dedicating himself for something he didn't want. But it was to late and dad couldn't help him. The thing that hurt him the most was that dad stoped working with him and stoped completly hanging out with all of us.

He started doins longer hours on work even tho it was very unnecessary beacuse he was already making enough money for us. He did that all beacuse he didn't wantto be around Denzell. Mom told him that byhanging out less with Denzell, it wouldn't be as hard for him to focus on his career.

It was horrible seing how my brother turned from a loving and happy person into a depressed and emotionless person. He still hung out with me but it was getting rarer and rarer. He just didn't have the time. Mom was always around his neck and putting more and more pressure on him. School was hard and that was just too much. He just started the fourth year of high school and everything was pilling up.

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I hope you're not bored beacuse this was just kinda the introduction so it wasn't really MEANT to be fun.
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