The dream life

Love is the worst

Tw: mentions of abuse and drug use

I woke up to Armando's arms wrapped around me in a tight hug. We were just lying in bed, I thought he was asleep so I gently moves his arm to get up only to be pulled back down by his arms. 'Please. Just five more minutes' he asked me looking at me. 'No we have got work.' I said to him. I kiss him on the cheek and get up, stretching and yawning. His eyes scanned my body as I got up and put some clothes on, I put the ones on that he bought me. Then I pop my heels on the grab a coffee from his kitchen. I go to the bathroom and sorry my hair leaving my natural curls to bounce up on my shoulder. Once I was done Armando got his usual suit and tie. He noticed me and held out his hand as I took it. 'Why thank you' I said smiling effervescently. He takes me into his car and lets me in closing the door behind me getting in and driving to our work place. I stared at it for a few seconds and took a deep breath and got out of the car.

I went inside before he went inside so it didn't seem like we were together. I went in to mr Conway and he decided to absolutely crush me by saying 'Armando won't be working with us anymore since he has got another job and he doesn't need the stress'. My heart sunk to the bottom of my chest and broke. He'll be gone and he won't be with me anymore how am I supposed to live with that. I stuttered over my words 'I've gotta go I'll be back'. I ran to Armando's car and opened his door. 'So he told you' he said to me. 'Well of course he fucking told me. You should've' I said breathing heavy. How could he not tell me this is important. He got out the car and closed the door. He leans against the car and held my face in his palms 'I'm not going to break up with you don't worry. I'll make it up to you I promise' he said pulling me into a hug. He kissed my head and held me close. I listened to his heartbeat and calmed down. I looked up at him. 'Pick me up at eight. No later. No earlier. Surprise me and take me somewhere wonderful' I said as he nodded and stood up and put three fingers to his head and said 'yes mam'. I smiled and kissed him. 'Bye darling' he said and I smiled and waved back.

I went inside and saw mr Conway right at the door. 'What was that between you and him' he said looking at me with an eyebrow raised. 'We just made a bond with each other that's all' I said smiling. 'Sure' he said leading me upstairs to the set. When I saw the new guy I froze on the spot. 'Why the fuck are you doing here' I said. It was my fucking ex. He looked me and stared. I ran to the bathroom and sobbed at the memories of our past life coming back. Him abusing me and I couldn't take it. I'm not going back out there. Amia came running in after me and opening the door to see the smudged mascara on my face. 'Y/n what's up' she said sitting down next to me and wrapping her arms around me. 'He is my fucking ex' I said falling into her arms. 'I'm sorry it's okay I'll walk back with you clean yourself up' she said getting up and helping me up. I fixed my dress pulling on the corset again and wiping my face looking better than before.

She walked in me walking in after bumping into him. 'What' I said to him with a hand on my hip. 'Well don't you look gorgeous' He said pulling me in by my waist making me uncomfortable. 'Get the fuck off me. I'm not yours anymore so piss off' I said turning around spinning on my heel and walking off. 'Mr Conway, I can't do this. If you didn't hear that's my ex so this won't end well' I said to him turning around and leaving. I called Armando to pick me up as tears ran down my face from the flashbacks. He got out of his car when he arrived and hugged me tight. 'Oh love, what's wrong' He said holding onto me. 'My ex is in there. I don't want to work with him please take me home' I told him and made him aware of the situation and he put me in his car, hand on my thigh, driving to his house.

I got out as soon as I could and got in putting on a hoodie and whacking my hair up in a bun. I got in his bed with my head in the pillow. He noticed and made me a hot chocolate and sat next to me holding onto me pushing my hair out of my face and looking at me. 'Love what happened with him' he said kissing my forehead. 'Well when I was in secondary school, high school for you, I was 16 when we went out. I thought we had a dream relationship up until he started doing drugs and being abusive. I stayed in the relationship through fear and force. He hit me when I was doing anything from cleaning to cooking to just sitting there. I just thought it was not his fault but I got out of it by telling someone and they helped but always had this fear of it' I told him sighing and a tear falling on my cheek. He looked at me with anger filled eyes and a fist in the hand that wasn't holding me.

'Name' He said looking down at me as I looked up. 'What?' I asked him. 'What's his name, his full name?' He asked me as I looked down. 'His name is, Nathaniel Parker' I told him. His hand went back to normal as he held me tight running his fingers through my hair rubbing my back. 'Sit up' he said letting me get up. He handed me my drink and massaged my back. 'Breathe love, deep breaths, we'll sort this out tomorrow' He said. We lay back down, as I shut my eyes and fell asleep on his chest as he put the blanket over me.