the white eyes

mind or heart

I've been waiting for years and now that I have finally forgotten about you. Now You come into my life like nothing.Why does my heart feel so much pain why can't forget about you like I did before? Is it because I still love you?I thought I was liking Jason but I guess since your here I just can't stop thinking about how much we spent together and how you changed. You used to have soft messy brown hair now you have slick black hair and your beautiful eyes I fell in love with has turned lifeless and dark black. What has happened to you that made you change?What pain have you gone through that your eyes look so lifeless? So many questions yet no answers. If I reach my hand to you would you take it would you take me in? Would we go back to our childhood in the good times when time was our only worry. If you told me to leave and run away with you would I? Why did you have to come!!You are messing with my life but I also want you in it.I'm I really that selfish? GOD help me I'm suffocating here so many ways to go yet I want the one that isn't available. Should I follow my heart or my brain is it right to choose the wrong??