I Guess Its Fate

Chapter 9: 2nd trimester...woot!

I was so ashamed of that little encounter with Tricia Sparks. I had gotten a ton of phone calls from my friends at school. I had to tell them the truth. I couldnt ust lie, i wasnt that kind of person.

So apparently i was the biggest celebrity in my highschool. The youngest girl to have twins in my school. It was owen by Lisa Fink, who had twins at 16. Oh yah, beat her in that caterogory. But i dont think i was proud of that. I mean, teen mom..is that something to be proud of?

Anyways, i was finally in my second trimester. I was finally out of morning sickness,most of my mood swings had cooled down, and i was so happy. My stomach was larger and you could see the bump on my shirt. I thought i looked pretty sexy.

I was going back in one month for my ultrasound to determine the genders. Zane and i were so excited, he wanted boys so bad. I said no way, were having girls. After listening to our fake bickring, Christian screamed, settling it at one boy one girl. We didnt argue over that. We came up with many cute names. First boy name would be Seth James. If we had two boys, the second one woud be Zeph Edward. If we had a girl, her name would be Danielle Ariel. Two girls, second one would be Delaney Christina.

Zane and i both adored all of those names, thinking they were so cute. I personally like Delaney Christina the best. So did Christian, cuz his name was so similar to her middle name.

I was still in so much pain. Sure, the pain had mostly fizzled out. My arms were healed, my leg was in an air cast, and my neck was fully healed. My dead baby sat uncomfotably in my stomach. I bet if my little dead angel was aive, if it would be uncomfortable for her too. Yes, i called it  her. I wanted a her, and instead of calling her BabyBoo, i called her Sammy.

Sammy. I really dont know why. I mean, she was never gunna be alive, never gunna have an actual gender, so why not, Sammy? I didnt like that name very much, actually not at all. But thiss just felt right. I mean, what if i had 2 boys? I just wanted one girl, to reassure my self, that yah, i had 2 boys and a girl. At 15, woohoo.

Zane approved of the name Sammy. It was just Sammy, no middle name. We wanted her to just have a place in the world, for people to know that she was there.

This made me so sad, having one shirveled up baby and two healthy babys. I could go on and on about this, really i could, but why should i? I was a teen mom, pregnant eith triplets. And since one of thems dead, shouldnt i be happy? Shouldnt i not want that extra baby? No. I want her as alive as the rest.

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sorrry for such a short chapter! i dont know what to write.