I Guess Its Fate

Chapter 18: a month old and a funeral.

My babies were a month old now. I couldnt belive it. Neither could i believe, that Tricia Sparks, was dead.

Her funeral was on August 22nd, we found out she was dead on August 15th.

You could never sleep, when you lost someone in your life. Even if you were enemies with them up until 2 months ago.

It seemed like Tricia and i had always been friends, but all the memories i have of her are her insulting me , and embarrassing me in the school hallways. But this whole time she always liked me.

Natalie and Maya told me how much Tricia always talked about me, saying she wanted to be just like me. Tricia apparently alwaya hated her blonde- almost white hair, her deep blue eyes, and her skinny, noodley figure. She apparently had always been jealous of my curls and eyes, and always wanted be me. Apparently she liked my Zane better than her Rosso (her boyfriend and babies father) I was shocked at that and recalled the many times she stared at Zane while we talked. And yet i stilll couldnt believe she was dead.

I guess jealousy was what kept her being mean. Than we were both pregnant she felt like we were so alike.The pregnancy part i didnt plan, but she did. And our kids only ended up being a week apart.

The funeral yesterday was pure torcher. It was sad, loneseome, and rainy.

~Funeral~

I was crying lightly, holding Sammy as the rain drops plopped down on the brim of my black veil. Sammy winced as the cold rain dripped on her nose, and i wiped them away.She and  Dani were wearing black onsies with black headbands circiling their heads with a black bow. Seth was the same, just without the headband.

I was dressed in a short, strappless black dress with the ends fringed with lace, i had a black cardigan draped over my shoulders, and my veil attached to the top of my bangs. Zane was dressed nicely in a black tux. He was ghostly pale though, I guess from all this commotion, and still getting over the fact that he had 3 kids.

When the ceremony started, i sat down in the front with Janey, Natalie, Maya, and Riya, them holding their babies. I had my three kids in there carriers, sitting on the ground next to me.

All the other girls went up to speak, and i did last. As i trudged up the dewy grass, my flats smoshing the grass, leaving visible footprints. When i got up there, i looked down at the small brown podium,took a deep breath, looked up and began my speech:

"Tricia Sparks, was never my friend. Well not until a couple months ago. We were both pregnant, and well, i didnt think much of her. At all. All i could descirbe her with was mean, rude, obnoxious, selfish, popular, snooty. But when i got to know her, those words just werent right. They didnt fit. I would know describe her as, caring, loving, kind, pretty, wonderful mother, and sadly, dead."

I looked straight at the 4 girls sobbing in the front row, cuddling their babies for comfort.

"And well, i just wish i went to the door, and answered it, putting myself in danger, and not her. She had two, absolutly STUNNING boys, Bentley and Avon over there, and its just so sad, for a girl of 16, mother of two, and great friend, is dead. In our hearts she lives on, god bless her."

I started crying and Zane walked up and grabbed my shoulder, lead me down to my seat and kissed my forehead.

"I love you baby" Zane said hugging me tight.

"I know" And i sobbed harder.

~Present~

I was still so upset. Who wouldnt be? When your friend dies, its serious.

Anyways, trying to forget the dead body, but remembering her was hard. But i really had to focus on my babies, they were getting so big! The girls were gurgling now, and Seth was  making more advanced noises.

One day i took them for a walk in the park, and i got all these rude stares. I cant help it. Oh kay, maybe i could of, but still. I mean you cant just leave your babies like that. When their born they mean the world to you. You cant leave them, you want to be with them every second of the day. Its an unusual relationship.

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