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Habits ✔️‼️

Written: September 7th, 2022

ABCD are thoughts.

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I woke up from another late night clubbing, another girl by my side on the bed, the side that was his.

I need to forget him.

I put on my boxers and sweatpants and walked towards ou- my kitchen. I have some habits, habits that I have acquired from trying to forget him. Forget that I'm missing him.

I served myself some water in a cup before sitting down on the table.

I don't know why he left, I don't know why I didn't call him. Why didn't I? I always ask myself that question, every day.

Why do I have these habits? And the answer is, I have them to keep the thoughts of what I could have done out my head. Never seems to work, but I do it anyway, hoping it works one day.

He's gone..

I have to stay high all the time. That's why my flat always smells like cigarettes and alcohol.

Hermione and Pansy are worried about me. They call me everyday. I always tell them I'm fine. They know I'm lying anyway.

Man, I hate when I rethink this everyday. It wasn't even my fault he left. I hate these habits.