Only Seven- Rewriting

YOONGI

Sunday, 06/03/22

Usually, Sundays are the days were we go out and have a relaxing day together with all the guys. Sometimes we go to the park and just laze around there or out on the boat in the ocean. Or just the beach if it's sunny like today.

But no, not this Sunday. In fact, today is anything but relaxed and you guessed it, it's because of the girl.

We had planned to go on the yatch today since we went to the beach last Sunday and didn't feel like doing that again this week. It was supposed to be just us enjoying each other's company away from everything.

We had to cancel that because Danielle is afraid of the water. Like she was even invited.

She heard us talking about our Sunday plans at dinner last night and had said that she was afraid of open water so we couldn't go. Literally just decided to insert herself in our plans like that.

The plan was to leave her at the house anyway but Hoseok, being the angel he is, wouldn't allow that. He had said it would be rude to do that to her seeing as she's our guest.

Jungkook had stormed out of the room after Hoseok defended Danielle by suggesting that he stay behind with her and we go to the boat without him. Jungkook said he had lost his appetite and couldn't sit and watch 'the girl' ruin something else for him. Like our Sunday dates. 

I can't say I wasn't mad either because I enjoy our lazy Sundays. It's actually the only day of the week where I'm able to have the guys all to myself without work, and college for Jungkook, Med school for Taehyung and Nursing school for Jimin.

But now we can't. And it's all because of her. God, I don't like this girl.

Now we're in our home library that Namjoon, and the maknaes frequently use for school. Namjoon just likes to read a lot.

All of us are usually busy with Namjoon being a ceo of the idol agency, Rkive, and is a partner at a law firm, me being his top producer. Namjoon has both a business degree and law masters degree.

Smart people. I roll my eyes mentally at the thought.

Hoseok runs and owns a number of nightclubs and his beloved dance studio. Jin is a private chef and runs his own restaurant. The younger boys are all still in college with Jimin and Taehyung being idols at Namjoon's company.

We never really have free time to spend which is why we made an oath that Sundays are our 'us' days. As in we all have to be available on Sundays no matter what and spend time together and talk about the week we had and whatnot.

Sundays are for us.

Which is why having to cancel really bummed us all even though some of us are not showing it as much.

I'm brought back to the present by Jungkook shouting at Hoseok, his short temper getting the best of him but I know Hoseok understands why he's angry right now.

"Why did you even bring her here, Hobi?" He is asking him, tears brimming in his angry eyes. Hobi's own eyes have tears in them and so does Jimin.

"I thought it would be good for us, Kook. You have to understand." Hobi says, his voice quieter than Jungkook's.
 
"WE WERE OKAY!" Jungkook shouts at him making Hobi flinch and look down at his lap in shame. I don’t like that expression on his face.

"Jungkook you need to calm down." Namjoon's voice is calm and authoritative as he scolds the youngest.

"NO! I don't need to calm down. I don’t- I don’t feel like I'm enough! Th-this makes it worse. Him bringing her here makes me feel like I'm not good enough for him. Like we're not good enough!" Jungkook's voice is a whisper when he gets to his last word and the tears are streaming freely on his face now and his entire body is shaking.

The room is struck silent after his admission. Hobi's face is etched with pain and shock. Namjoon doesn't look surprised while everyone else, myself included, is looking at Jungkook with shock.

He doesn't feel enough.

Why though? We've never given him a reason to feel that way. I mean he is the youngest and we met him a year after, since we didn't all just meet on one day, but we've never given him a reason to feel that way. Like he's not enough.

Namjoon gets up and catches Jungkook as he crumbles. He's full on sobbing now and i feel it like a thousand knives in my body. The pain in his voice was so raw that everyone on the room is brought to tears.

"I feel like I don't deserve any of you guys." He admits in a small choked up voice, holding onto Namjoon's shirt tightly in his fist. I thought he was done but he continues. "I'm younger than you all, my degree is basically useless compared to all of yours and I have nothing to offer you. Nothing."

His words break me and I get up from my spot and pull him from Namjoon and into my arms. Sobs wreck his body and I hold him tighter. He responds by tightening his own arms around me, burying his face in the crook of my neck.

I never would've guessed that his jealousy comes from him feeling like he has nothing to offer us. Like he's not enough.

"You're enough, baby, I promise." I murmur into his ear, trying with all my might to be strong for him, and he cries harder. "It's okay. Let it out. I got you."

JUNGKOOK

I hold onto Yoongi tight after my admission. Something I never wanted to do, or at least not yet. Tears of frustration don't stop coming out of my eyes no matter how much I try to stop them.

I hate this so much. I hate that he felt the need to bring a girl into our relationship. I hate how she clings to him all the time. I hate how she looks at Jin. And Taehyung. I hate that Jimin feels the need to be polite to her. I hate that he doesn't feel like he's meeting Hobi's need to take care of someone. I hate it all.

I hate her. And I know it's irrational because she hasn't done anything wrong but I hate her either way.

I understand Hobi. I really do because I feel like I would've done the same at some point. We both struggle with insecurity and abandonment issues so I can never truly be angry at him.

I'm just angry at the situation. Never at him though.
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Sad Kooki :(